Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
do you ever durring a manic episode want to do things you normally wouldnt want to do like piercing your body or tattoos? i do and i want them to be ones that somehow punish me by being visable and risky a bit like on your face or neck. ive done this and i think it will happen agai n. I got a tattoo of the gay simble on my inner wrist 2men simbols conected. everyone sees that one and i get some strangeclooks. I dont want to do any more but ive been dreaming about one on my neck...the side...
When manic, I want to do Lots of things I don't care about otherwise. I'm like, two different people. (and I try to tell people ahead of time, but do they Listen?? Noo-o-o)
D'oh. Bipolar.
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i just don't like the idea of having them.
if i had the choice i would have stuck with my nose piercing, and left it at that.
enjoyable most, are tattoos on other people.
i have a strange fear that it is/was wrong of me to get a tattoo, it is almost a religious paranoia.. like, you're not supposed to do that !
have sex if there was someone i trusted enough around to have sex with... and not get hurt emotionally
hm... painting-anything
mad music listening and
dancing
not giving a crud what anyone thinks, but aching for attention, understanding and approval
more sex
purchasing anything, or just a little extra or better quality than something i can afford
feeling self righteous
grandiose thinking
paranoia
the symptoms get more unbearable and dark the further the mania goes
...re-hashing past events and trying frantically to make sense of everything, including existential questions
hypergraphia
trying to fix everything myself by hand without reading any instructions...
not paying attention to authority.. or being insubordinate to almost every kind of authority unless said authority is compassionate and righteously behaving, by my standards.
learning that to be that rebellious lands you in jail in the first place.
having delusional thinking about relationships and co-dependency.
freudian and jungian analysis jungle inside your jumbled post modern, semi-apocalyptic questioning of everything from a crumb on the floor to the table and the difference between them but the similarities.
thinking i'm a genius.
having ridiculous fantasies about different archetypes i may or may not embody.
getting steeped in unfounded spiritual garbage.
seeking incessantly, expressing, pushing forcing...
that is mania for me.
manic driving sprees.. the list seems kind of endless.
I know that if I do, it will be something like, 'Return to Sender', or 'This side up' or something like that.
Maybe 'Fragile'. (Only it will be "Fra-jee'-lay", like in Christmas Story!!)
Something that I'm sure to regret later!!!
I seem to be going on a mini-spending spree the last few months -- the first time my illness ever took me down this path.
USUALLY, I lose sight of what's appropriate and acceptable when it comes to sexual behavior.
I'm hard put to choose which symptom is the least harmful!!!
I did it once..what a disaster
Normally, I wouldn't mind having a little one somewhere discreet, but when I feel way up, I wanna get my nose pierced, and a tattoo on my neck. Of WHAT, I don't know. Maybe I better contact the tattoo parlors in the area, and tell them NOT to do it for me on the spot. Would they do that, I wonder?