Well today I had my counciling appointment and she wanted me to see a Dr before I left the hospital shesaid she was a little worried about me. I acually was honest with my counciler told her about my feelings of hurting myself. I broke down a couple of times just tring to explain myself and my feelings. I agreed to see the Dr I told her I have a hard time opening up to them and she said she would talk to him about me first if I didnt mind. That way Id be ahead of tyhe game.
I was scared to even go into the Dr office I was feeling raw and opened up, sad you know. Well I felt worse when I left the guy asked a few questions and told me that I should take a vitamin he even gave me samples. I feel like maybe when I was explaining myself I made it seem like nothing even though it was major to me.
I still feel bad and still have the racing thoughts and random thooughts of hurting myself. I dont want to die but I want a reason to feel this bad. My mind is just like tetering on the edge and Im afraid of falling.Im having a hard time explaing my thoughts and feelings to dr's I dont know how to explain that I hear voices telling me that everyone hates me. I cant explain the feeling of everyone staring and talking about me or the feeling of worthlessness.
How do I explain these things I cant figure out myself? what do you all do to explain a un realistic mind? Help!