It can feel like a bottomless pit for sure.

This chorus is how I feel when depressed-
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NSNuqX3EY70

((hugs))

Hanna, I find that the one "consuming factor" of depression is "living in my head". If I sit with my emotions and do nothing with them, they swell and multiply and become bigger than life.

I have had a rough few days and found that by forcing myself to become outwardly active, I prevented the depression from getting worse. I gave my mind something else to focus on besides the "negative" thoughts. I got busy, kept busy, doing whatever I could physically. I didnt feel the energy to do those things but realized that the alternative was to "live in my head" and allow the depression to consume me.

Try to find things to do even if it is just straightening a room, sweeping out the car, playing a game with your children. Take a walk, bake a cake, do a craft with your children. "living in your head" is dangerous and it lies to us.

Please be strong sweetie and this day shall pass. How it passes is up to you.

Hugs

It is so dangerous. I had to fight every day for four months right before diagnosis to stay alive for my family. I very much lived in my head. I thought I was the scum of the earth; filled with satan or a demon. This coming from about a four month mania where I thought I was one of the disciples. I likened myself to Paul with a thorn in his side. My thorn is my mental illness. Sometimes I prick my finger on the tip of the thorny tip. But, other times I have my arms out embracing it for it defines me. I am so sorry Hanna that you are feeling down. I am here if you need to talk. I know what it's like to have little ones and be depressed. Everybody try and have a good day!! Hugs.

hanna im right here with you....
i know its so hard, im trying to keep on top of it,
sometimes i fight it and it skulks away...sometimes it wraps itself around me and wont let go no matter how hard i try to smile and push it away.
and other times i just let it be...and wait for the release.
im trying to fight it today.....i hope you can do the same.
thinking of you
hugs

Hey Hanna... can you get to an IOP program, or to your tdoc? (Hugs from my pit to yours. Today's report comes from under my fuzzy green blankie with my cat, and my chihuha is laying on my feet.)

Thank you all for your replies.

I'm trying my hardest to not let it ruin my day/life. I'm going to try to get some things done around the house....otherwise I'll just wallow in self pity all day long.

I know I'll make it through...it's just a matter of when?

im sorta in the same place you are today. this blows, but i think youre on the right track-getting housework done will keep our minds off things. i really hope you get to feeling better! i'm going to go tackle my never ending mountain of laundry (or at least try to)

Hannah, Hannah... come to the Coffee House and have some soup and bread............... then a nap, then some coloring... I promise great company and a lot of fun!