Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
Today was VERY bad. I had to go to the unemployment office...AGAIN. The temp agency's "middleman" company is saying I didn't tell the temp agency that I was available for work when my assignment was done, which is NOT true. I called the actual temp company and they said that I had told them I was available but that I had to have my unemployment agency basically duke it out with the middleman co, even though she could easily PROVE I did what I had to do. I walked back into the unem office with my cellphone. Basically I had to CALL the temp agency while I was sitting there with the unem guy. He told me to tell her to fax me over a statement showing that I had contacted them...so she did....WAS IT REALLLLLY THAT FREAKING HARD!?!?! I was literally bawling at this guy's desk. Supposedly I will find out if I have "won the fight"....the last obstacle to get my unemployment claim going. I am praying for this. If I don't get it, I will be looking at homelessness. Then, during the course of the day, I got three phone calls from employers that I had interviews with. All calling "cheerfully" to tell me that they hired someone else. So I have to suck it up and be nice because you never know if something else might come up in the future. And it is decent of them to at least give you the decency of a follow up call. But. It. Still. Hurts. I then got into it over the phone with my "mother". I was so upset that I engaged in self harm. It was either that or swallow every pill I could get my hands on. I will find out more about my unemployment claim tomorrow. Also, I finally might be getting somewhere with my caseworker. My pdoc called her and told her that the main psych above her could take a look at my meds so that I could start receiving job placement assistance again. I hope to heR about that tomorrow as well.
I am also in a lot of physical pain tonight. My legs are throbbing and I just feel exhausted both mentally and physically. I just don't know how much more I can take before I break. I am in constant prayer, pleading for Him to help me. I feel like I have fallen down a very deep and dark well. I feel trapped. I need something good to happen to me for a change.
Thank you for listening.
I am also in a lot of physical pain tonight. My legs are throbbing and I just feel exhausted both mentally and physically. I just don't know how much more I can take before I break. I am in constant prayer, pleading for Him to help me. I feel like I have fallen down a very deep and dark well. I feel trapped. I need something good to happen to me for a change.
Thank you for listening.
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Good Thursday to you!I've been watching a really long trial on Youtube these last couple of nights and will finish tomorrowHopefully I'll be in the land of nod soon and I hope my peeps are having sweet dreams followed by a great daySending hugs...xo
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Lets make ot a good beginning to the weekHow can we start the day off on a positive note!I have several chores planned that I have been putting off but I'm determined to accomplish todaySo I'm feel grateful for accomplishmentsI hope that you all have a fabulous week!!Sending hugs...xo
You will need to make a plan because it is very likely you may be homeless while waiting for disability to kick in. Can you pare down your stuff to essentials and put that in storage?
A while back you mentioned that you might like to become a phelbotomist (sp?) In the mean time could you do an informational interview with someone who is currently working in that role to find out how hard it is to get certified and to find work? What are the salary expectations? Could you borrow the money to do the training?
Unfortunately when we get tired everything kicks in esp chronic pain. If you can at all manage keep going to the gym to cut the anxiety and increase the feeling of well being.
Could you increase your skills by taking some online training? These days there are many sites that offer free classes I found some through my local public library of all places.
You like all of us are facing enormous uncertainty and your ways of coping will need to expand considerably. If you can go to RL support groups in your area that would be wonderful. Many public libraries have workbooks on DBT skills and CBT skills both are worth considering as they help with anxiety and depression...Reach out TC, engage with others you never know where a friend might be waiting to be found.