what kind of "mother" blocks her GROWN daughter's calls?? I went to the ER last night with bad stomach and back pain (and a troubled state of mind). If I allow myself to be honest, I think I may be having stomach issues because of the anxiety surrounding my employment situation. And maybe deep down I wanted to feel like I was being cared for..whatever the reason...I told my backstabbing troublemaking sister I was at the ER and asked her specifically NOT to tell "mother". My "mother" always berates me for seeking medical treatment, whether it is an ER visit or a dr visit. So...my sister told "mother" I went to work after being up most of the night. I am a temp and no work=no pay. I tried to text "mother" a few times with no response. I got home after work and tried to call her at home. I got a recorded message saying that her number was blocking MY number!!!!! WHAT THE ?????? I am not really upset. Or sad. My "mother" is in bad health. She probably freaked out because I went in to the ER WITHOUT HER PERMISSION. she probably told her loser husband that I was "driving her crazy" and he probably told her that they could fix that by blocking me. I can't take her either. She was calling me multiple times a day. And if I didn't answer EVERY single time, she would DEMAND to know why and what was I doing that I couldn't answer her. I feel like I did when I was her "child". She was very controlling. She used to backhand me. One time she held me down by my mouth and I bit her and then she beat the $;?! Out of me. She would probably do it today if she could get away with it. My dad did the same when I was a kid. Recently I had a situation where he was in my face, screaming and his fists clenched. I have not been in his physical presence since then. So basically I am feeling VERY alone and unloved. I feel like I have none I can trust. Thank you all for listening. Sorry if this was too lengthy or if it contained any triggers.
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