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I am having multiple situations where I am being treated with total disrespect and unfairness.
The first is family. I have a very self centered, dysfunctional family, mother, father and sister. They are very hurtful. My sister plays headgames with me. I try to avoid my dad as much as i can because he says hurtful things about me regarding my weight, lack of education, etc... and my mother is a spoiled brat who has been handed EVERYTHING to her on a silver platter. Yet when i ask for a bite to eat (when over at her house helping her unpack after she moved) i was told i don't come over unless there is something in it for me.
And at work...i work with a COMPLETE PSYCHO? She gives me the cold shoulder for DAYS and then is all of a sudden nice. And the human resources witch has said and done SOOO many derogatory things to me regarding my weight.
I have also been feeling ill for months. I have been in the ER three times in four months due to stomach pain,nausea and diarrhea...all of which are severe. I also have a history of abdominal cancer, so that tends t make me get even more nervous when i feel il in my stomach/abdominal area.
I wish i had died when i had cancer. I hate my life and lately, myself. Instead of having repeated abdominal tests, i should be more concerned with my mental state. But i am not. I wish i could just die and be done with it all. I don't enjoy anything anymore. I don't even want to get out of bed. On my days off, all i do is sleep. It is my only escape from my shitty existence. I have no energy. I function just enough to hold onto a job that further worsens my depression.
I feel completely hopeless right now. I am so exhausted i cannot think straight. Not physical exhaustion, but mental....i just feel dead emotionally...if only the physical part would come....
The first is family. I have a very self centered, dysfunctional family, mother, father and sister. They are very hurtful. My sister plays headgames with me. I try to avoid my dad as much as i can because he says hurtful things about me regarding my weight, lack of education, etc... and my mother is a spoiled brat who has been handed EVERYTHING to her on a silver platter. Yet when i ask for a bite to eat (when over at her house helping her unpack after she moved) i was told i don't come over unless there is something in it for me.
And at work...i work with a COMPLETE PSYCHO? She gives me the cold shoulder for DAYS and then is all of a sudden nice. And the human resources witch has said and done SOOO many derogatory things to me regarding my weight.
I have also been feeling ill for months. I have been in the ER three times in four months due to stomach pain,nausea and diarrhea...all of which are severe. I also have a history of abdominal cancer, so that tends t make me get even more nervous when i feel il in my stomach/abdominal area.
I wish i had died when i had cancer. I hate my life and lately, myself. Instead of having repeated abdominal tests, i should be more concerned with my mental state. But i am not. I wish i could just die and be done with it all. I don't enjoy anything anymore. I don't even want to get out of bed. On my days off, all i do is sleep. It is my only escape from my shitty existence. I have no energy. I function just enough to hold onto a job that further worsens my depression.
I feel completely hopeless right now. I am so exhausted i cannot think straight. Not physical exhaustion, but mental....i just feel dead emotionally...if only the physical part would come....
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Lets make ot a good beginning to the weekHow can we start the day off on a positive note!I have several chores planned that I have been putting off but I'm determined to accomplish todaySo I'm feel grateful for accomplishmentsI hope that you all have a fabulous week!!Sending hugs...xo
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You may recall I write that my sister and he husband were in an affair with my brothers wife. It's been almost a year. Mom last week asked me to invite my sisters boys to a birthday at my house for my brothers daughter. I was on my way to pick up the boys when my mom called and told me to turn around. Apparently my brother didn't know my nephews were coming and he was livid. I came home to a...
People can be so thoughtless and so discouraging...
You are among friends here!
Any chance you might be slipping down and need a medication tweak back up to the midline?
You have a lot to live for and don't let a stinker take up space in your head!
here are some links on FMLA & descrimination
http://www.dol.gov/whd/resources/posters.htm
I guess later I'm glad that that didn't happen, but unfortunately I'm in such a bad place right now I can't even remember how to tell that it will get better.
I just know that it usually does get better, and that often times it's because of talking it through here on DS.
I almost died 5 years ago, and I've wished I had before. I try to remind myself that I'm here for a reason and I need to stick around until I figure out what that is. Sometimes that helps a little bit.
Things are not much better. My psych put me on cogentin because of my feeling like i constantly need to move.
My thyroid is getting into the higher ranges, which means that my thyroid is working harder than normal. I have been having heart palpitations and i just feelexhausted.
I am not suicidal, but i am truly at the point where i wish i could just die in my sleep. I am a fat cowand am defective from head to toe. It hurts to walk...i wanted to do a 5k zombie walk/ run this year and i couldn'tbecause i physically can't do it. Mylegs knees and back are very painful right now :(
Everything that i used to enjoy feels pointless. I am a waste of space. Im not sure whyi am here. Im sorry to be so negative but i am being honest. Noises bother me big time. I am feeling extremely irritable, to the point where pretty much every sound i hear is a complete assult to my eardrums. I am also having trouble at work because i work with a TOTAL B$&#!. SHE is niceone minute, then won't speak to me for days.
There's more of you to love, you're not fat. And even if you are rotund, I'd say attidude and self confidence count for more. Be brazen, look up ways to improve self-esteem. I certainly think you are lovely, as a human being. It takes a strong person to tolerate such disrespect and unfairness, give yourself credit, you are resilient! But perhaps, you should be more assertive. People will walk all over you...if you allow it.