That was suppose to say a lot of awesome girls.

OH DEAR! IF it causes you to have that much grief its not worth it. I cannot handle those types of jobs. Too high stress. I would tell you to blow it off. Especially since your anxiety is so high. Perhaps looks for a job that does not demand so much.

I too just wilt under the pressure of high-stress jobs. I could not do sales either. I'm beginning to learn that what I like in my job is regularity and stability -- same or similar tasks given with clear expectations of when I'm supposed to finish them, with a pay rate that does not change with every microscopic change in my fortunes (e.g., whether a sale was made).

What you described sounds maddening!

I have to agree that if the position is that disturbing to you then you should forget about it. I have a lot of problems with stress and anxiety related to working. My doctors and I are working on my issues right now. I have had three hospital stays that can be traced back to work related stress. In the mean time I am currently on disability to pay the bills. It took a year and a half to get but it really made a difference.

Good luck and be kind to yourself.

commisions/sales is a tough gig. i don't blame you at all for getting anxiety attacks. i'm sure if you keep throwing out the resumes, you'll find something more suited to you.

good luck.

You made need a job but not this one. If they pay like that then no way.
You might be doing right by not going.
ttfn AnnieEm

Breath!!!.... take some slow deep breaths sweetie..
You are catastrophyzing.... lumping everything that is not going well into one big melting pot is too overwhelming for anyone..
If you look back at the interview and think what might go wrong.. perhaps it wouldn't be a good fit for you so you don't take it or perhaps the reverse may be true and if so you look at something else... try to reign yourself in when you start to think like this if possible.. maybe make a list of the pro's and con's.... without putting all of your problems together.. then it becomes workable.... cognitive therapy can be a big help with this type of thinking.. big hug of support for you..xo

No way would I take a job like that if it caused so much anxiety. I am glad you are going to see your doc about some anxiety med. It will help you a lot. Hope you feel better.

I ended up, not going- Took my son to his cousin instead to play. Since Last Night, my aneixty been off the chart and I was crying on and off all day because of this job. So I didn't go :( I feel really bad for passing up a possible job, though. I miss the way I use to be, not thinking about the future. Now, all I think about is what is going to happen if neither of us find work. I am mad at myself for my hpyo-episode where I, on a wimp decided to leave talon and give all my saving to my mother, who then kicked me out after 2 months, and after she spend 1200 of mine, I gave her to help out and live there. ( Alot of angry there.) I wish I was still at Sykes. Even if the bosses where the kind to be degrading to the other employee's. They always liked me and I just left. I am mad at Talon for quiting the first job he had in 2 1/2 years after only 2 months, so now we are in this situation. Our Tax refunds may solve it for a time but thats going to dry up too without more money coming in. :( I hate money. I hate this house, I hate that the freaking landlord stopped paying her mortgage with our rent payments, and then a lawyer told my mother in law to stop paying her. ( Barb our Landlord is a good meaning women, Just has some mental issues that screw her and screwed us) I am mad that, Marilyn didn't put the money we gave her in a saving acct for rent, and I am mad that she isn't putting what the rent payment should be in a saving too, so when we have to move, the money is there. I don't feel safe in my home, I don't feel like its ours because we aren't paying and the house is foreclosing because Barb decided to just keep all our rent payments and not paid on this house. GRRRR. I feel like me and my son ( More upset about my son) can end up on the streets if no one gets their ass in gear. I put out resumes like crazy everyday and I just feel like no one wants me. I got the exp. the education. what more can I do but keep applying to Everything, and I mean everything at this point.

( Sorry, this was just suspose to be a thank u for your advice.)

Oh and I forgot to call my pdoc, :*( dammit.


Lol( cause there is nothing else, I can do but pretend to laugh about it)

Giant (((Hugs))) for you. You really are going through a lot right now.

Stuff like this never bother me before, I just went along, always telling ppl is okay, Etc. Etc. Reassuring everyone else, that good will come. and Now I am the one needing to hear this. lol