I am 20..Stressed cuz i have high blood prusser..it cause me anxity!! I am on new pills for blood prusser today still my heart rate was fast(i guess give it a couple days like any med i know!) My docter my one little thing of hope was I wanted to try this thing called ture hope its even made in canada(were I am) I just look at me as if he wanted to lugaht and said well presonal i dont believe in that.. theres not enoght medical proof..I told him befor i explaned its natureal and all the people its work for that I know its not 100% sure its gunna work I know I could be putting myself at risk...but I dont want to be on these anymore...He knew say he said it I was trying not to cry..i really was...he patted me on the back as i left..I know i feels hes doing best..and I know this isnt a great time with my blood prusser and anxity and my nanny passing 6 months ago and my grandfather with his new gf...I told him I know we would have to get my blood prusser under contral to ween me off..Still I cant believe he said no! he made me get blood work for my mood stablizer(i said we did that 3 months ago didnt we? yea but it could chagne(YA BUT HAVE U LOOK AT MY ANTI DEPRESSANT NO!!)
I feel like a have hit a low..not The bigest low ever but a low..I still see hope theres always hope..I have more hope now then ever I know my nanny is up there trying to help (I wonder if she feels helpless cuz she cant?) I miss life when i was 19 6 months ago...when life wad normal i was blanced everything well up till near the end of my nannys life was good,(thus my life was good)
I just need sumone to talk to rite now..nite time is hard for me day time i feel so much better even saft..tho know one is home then..