Try and stop all those random thoughts popping into your head and foccus on what needs to be done. You might sleep better if you had a plan of attack. You can't really act on anthing over the weekend so plan get organised. I know you have this in you. Your a very iinsightfull, capable person. Keep battling on.

There's a four lettered word
As offensive as any
It holds back the few
Puts a stop to the many.

You can't climb that mountain
You can't cross the sea
You can't become anything you want to be.

He can't hit a century
They can't find a cure.
She can't think about leaving
or searching for more.

Because can't is a word with a habit of stopping
The ebb and flow of ideas
It keeps dropping itself where we know
in our hearts it's not needed
And saying "don't go"
when we could have succeeded.

But those four little letters
That end with a T
They can change in an instant
When shortened to three.

We can take off the T
We can do it today
We can move forward not back
We can find our own way.

We can build we can run
We can follow the sun
We can push we can pull
We can say I'm someone
Who refuses to believe
That life can't be better
With the removal of one
Insignificant letter.

Heretic, please don't consider suicide, I've seen you conquer so much, your so strong never throw that away.

Have you exhausted everything the state has to offer? Section 8 housing TANF unemployment. Are you on disability?

If you would like I could help. Could you pm me your county and a couple of other things?

Heretic, you've been such a good friend, I hate to see you hurt, and would b heartbroken if you did something like suicide. There is an answer,there has to be. Keep looking and fighting. If its one thing you are is a fighter. Keep fighting...

Pm me k?

Max, wonderful reply! Love it!

thanks maxheadroom, I really wish all those people who say they "can't" work would walk a mile in my shoes.
But I've decided - I can't work either. I'm too sick and have been for a long time. I will probably keep breathing and hate every second of it.
Planning to go homeless isn't that tough, there isn't that much too it. But trying to find someone to help me move my stuff into storage is the hard part. I may just lose everything, which gives me even more incentive to kill myself.
But thanks for your thoughtful reply

One battle at a time hectic. I know the thought of just giving up well but you posted here for help. You have posted elsewhere earlier in the week. What happened to all those suggestions? Sometimes it's just baby steps to get out of the I'm fucking up and the I don't give a crap anymore phase. You have people who careabout you here even if their not on your friend list. I'd hate to think of you living on the streets not something I'd wish on anybody more so with a mental illness.

stuff is just that i was homeless just find a shelltour and things will be fine there assentence it just takes time so think in a couple of years things will all be free you could go for disabilty and get over the things sell the stuff you have get some start up cash dont tell any one you have any money that never helps when you are going to get things for free i tried i never got shiut they would always tell me you have to much if you stay broke for a while things will be free then you will have housing and food and some spend cash because of ssdi things will get better and if any one hand told me about this i wont have gone throught the shit with the wrong mind set i had viocew talking about suidce will home less i think that that was mental tuff for me but after a while things turned around and then i got my life together just like i told you and house homeless has it advantges you can sleep all day in the park people do it so you dont look out of place and then you get free food there is people if you want sleeping time has other all the time but aside from the people or not is your chioce so just keep your head up and thing will work out if you can go to portsmouth nh it a great place to be homeless the shelter is nice and the assitance is good and slow but there is free everything i live near there so my be i could help you throught that you wont need me but i could point you in the write direction hopes this help and really it wont be that bad being homeless if you live in the right shelter

thanks for your replies,
maxheadroom - I took the suggestions I got earlier and tried to follow through on them, there are shelters in Las Vegas, it's true, but I wouldn't want to go to one. guess I will just take whatever comes