Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I just started dating this new girl and I am terrified! So much has been going on in my life. My sister is being crazier than ever and blaming me for everything, my mother is stressing out and starting to take it out on me. Starting to feed into my sisters lies... I posted this on facebook but I doubt anyone I know will reply to it.
Help me guys. My heart is in so much pain right now. I don't know what to do.
Fighting for the freedom I never had
Once obtained, now clueless as how to use it.
Fighting to do the right thing
Not one clue what the right thing is.
Fighting to protect my young heart
Not wanting to shut people out.
Fighting to fix my broken soul
Only to fight new battles every day.
Ive always wanted to be a good person.
Ive always wanted to do no harm.
Now that I am growing up, leaving the child behind
I often find myself lost in this violent sea they call the;
Real World.
This Real World is full of hatred and bigotry, at least as far as Ive seen.
Its full of lies and back-handed kindness.
Users and abusers make the best of this world because they feed on the weak.
How do you make it in such a world when all you want to do is be kind?
When all you want to do is extend your open hearted love to everyone you meet?
Im so scared of being hurt again.
I dont understand how to tell truth from lies.
Im too trusting. But at the same time, not trusting at all.
I pray to God to help me see the best in people, only to be let down time and time again.
I only find solace in solitude, but that is no way to live.
How can I break out of my shell when it's already been broken for me?
How can a person like me ever fully love in a world so filled with hate?
Help me guys. My heart is in so much pain right now. I don't know what to do.
Fighting for the freedom I never had
Once obtained, now clueless as how to use it.
Fighting to do the right thing
Not one clue what the right thing is.
Fighting to protect my young heart
Not wanting to shut people out.
Fighting to fix my broken soul
Only to fight new battles every day.
Ive always wanted to be a good person.
Ive always wanted to do no harm.
Now that I am growing up, leaving the child behind
I often find myself lost in this violent sea they call the;
Real World.
This Real World is full of hatred and bigotry, at least as far as Ive seen.
Its full of lies and back-handed kindness.
Users and abusers make the best of this world because they feed on the weak.
How do you make it in such a world when all you want to do is be kind?
When all you want to do is extend your open hearted love to everyone you meet?
Im so scared of being hurt again.
I dont understand how to tell truth from lies.
Im too trusting. But at the same time, not trusting at all.
I pray to God to help me see the best in people, only to be let down time and time again.
I only find solace in solitude, but that is no way to live.
How can I break out of my shell when it's already been broken for me?
How can a person like me ever fully love in a world so filled with hate?
Also, one of my very favorite self-help books, which I have pitched so many times on here, I'm sure a few people are going to roll their eyes, is called, "Boundaries" by Dr. Henry Cloud and Dr. John Townsend. It helps you find out when to say "yes" and when to say "no" and just as importantly, why. I just bought a new copy because I gave my old one to my daughter, and it also comes with a work book. I am going to re-read the book, and go through it with that. I started to once before, but I wasn't ready yet.
One more thing, I have recently started a support group on here called the Freewriters Group. (If you want to take a look at it, you can find the link on my profile, as well as the codependent group link) I am very pleasantly suprised, that this group is taking off, and have received several "thank-you's" for it.
Anyone who wants to join is welcome to. (( tinkle of bamboo pipe mobile in the breeze))
A friend of mine who is also BP gave me some good advice: When facing tough decisions, he always, as a rule, think them through rationally and he doesn't consider his emotions (too much, at least).
Let us know how things turn out!
www.christianbook.com
(don't shy away from the Christian aspect if you're not a Christian, it uses very little "Christianeese" and still is one of my favorite books)