If you're suicidal, go strait to a mental hospital. They'll get you stable and teach you ways to cope. Try snapping a rubberband or dragging ice across the places you normally cut. It sates the urge. You can talk to me any time. I have Bipolar I and Generalized Anxiety Disorder.

Thanks for replying. Started to feel like there wasn't anyone else on here. I've been in the mental hospital twice. My therapist and psychiatrist are aware of the situation and are trying to keep me out of them because it kind of made things worse last time. I've tried ice and rubberbands, it doesn't really work for me, it's just not the same sudden release. I'm going through another med change and the last three days have been just hellish :(. I haven't gotten stable in a whole year of attempted treatment.

Most importantly, if you are suicidal, seek help an soon as possible. But medication is a process. I have gone through about thirteen before I found my correct combination of meds (I only kind it three months ago and have been diagnosed for three years). Zoloft made me suicidal and I had to be hospitalized. And Prozac made me manic. And geodon screwed me up. And lithium made me I'll for four weeks until I had to stop taking it. Three years seems like a long wait and almost unbearable, but in the end, I think it's worth it. I still have struggle with self harm, but that is something meds can't fix. I have learned better coping and rarely harm.