I feel 2 withdrawn into myself 2 do anything anymore, I always feel betta when i'm on my own,wit my music escaping the world around me. than 2lking 2 someone about how i feel. I'm confused myself about how i feel, so i dont c the point in bothering tryin 2 explain it 2 any other person cuz they only get annoyed and angry cuz they don't understand me. My trust barriers have bin broken to many times 4 me 2 feel whole again, so i carry on feeling really bad, cuz people don't understand that it's not a concious choice to not 2lk, I don't even know I'm not 2lkin, I drift off away from reality, n i'm thinkin n ceeing nothing, then i get asked wt's the matter, y arn't u 2lking, and i'm wy 2 defensive 2 2lk 2 people, and all these things that affect who i am, i don't realise until someone tells me but by then i'v allready lost them. My personality went through a rapid change without me knowing, but the world ceems to only b out 2 hurt me, so i stick my two fingers up to it, that maybe an immature wy of looking at it, but thats one thing i'm sure that i feel. I mean is it wrong 2 feel all these things? If anybody can relate to how i feel, id b more than glad 2 2lk 2 u.