You have anger. It's obvious in this post. Anger is what the mind uses as defense against emotional pain. You have a right to be angry. You have a right to your sorrow, also. Get counseling. This is a tragic and extremely traumatic event and professional help can only have positive effects on your life.

Hi,

I am sorry for your loss and the way you lost your mom. But I don't think any of us here thinks we got it worse than everyone else. This board is full of people who lost their loved ones by murder, suicide, sudden death, prolonged illness, drug overdose. If there is one thing I have learned from my journey is that every grief is unique and equally painful, we should never compare or weigh each others' loss.

I am glad you found joy and happiness, remain positive and good things will happen to you. Take care...

I agree with you, jhelum... no one can weigh the amount of pain and devastation brought on by the loss of a beloved friend or family member. It is terrible for someone to have their life taken away by another but by any means, it still hurts like hell. Bluesprof, I am sincerely sorry for your loss, and am also glad that you have joy and happiness. May these feelings remain within you. God bless.

Little boy whistling in the dark...........................No you DO NOT feel ok, we know that all too well. We are here for you, and grief theraphy is a must for you. Please take a step towards making things heal a bit, you don't have to be big and strong, nobody is in the face of grief. (Loving hugs) xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

You are very angry and it is understandable. Anger is a secondary emotion, it is the brains defense against fear or other feelings it is not able to process. I am sorry for your loss, we are all hurting here, that is why we are here. Talk to us, see about getting counseling, just don't stay angry for the rest of your life.