Why does everything happen at once? Is there a war up stairs by God to curse people like me who are going through very rough times.Why is all of this happening? Why cant people understand that I miss Frank? Why is everyone telling me to get over it? What does get over it mean? Why does it imply? Does it mean to forget the fact that Frank existed?Let me tell you what is happening between Brad and me..the other day we called the landlord about the lease and we asked for a two year lease.Most places here dont have two year leases at all.They have month to month.But at least Brad and I have got a house and we have got privacy.The landlord called us back and told us the bad news.He told us that he is having difficulty on his job and he cant keep up the mortgage anymore.He told us that he will know in September,but to pay him for the month of Sept.He told us that he may have to sell the house back to the bank.So today we called The Housing Authority of seattle and they told us this.We told them that we have paid everything on time..They told us that after an oral statement..you have got 3 months to move.And if he took the first and last months rent..he owes us.But we have got 90 days and Brad and I are looking.I dont want to leave all the cats here,,but I have no choice.My cats are coming with me.First of all..this isnt a house.This is a cottage.Brad and I dont have bedrooms.We have got a big room.I have the entire living room and his room is near the kitchen.We have got a bathroom and we dont have a garage,that fits in the cars.And I found out that other day that someone in my family is ill.I do not know what their condition is..but I am so worried.And I want everyone to know the very good news.I have found myself a therapist! And I got my medication Depakote back! I have been of Depakote for 18 months! But now I feel so much different and I do sleep better.And I had a sign from Frank the other night.I dreamt that he came to see me and he was holding a wolf.The wolf was entirely white.What does it mean? Is Frank trying to contact me from the dead? Has anyone seen a white wolf and if they have,are they vicious? But this wolf-let me pet him and he began to lick my hand! Then he began to lick my face and I woke up! Anyone who understands dreams please let me know what this means.Have a wonderful holiday.Keep it safe.Vader.