I am so sorry. Di she really leave you? I pray she is with you and I pray that you are soil strong you can live no matter what happens. God bless

I feel the same - today is the worst day since. The pain is greater and is growing. Time does not heal wounds; it makes them worse.

I think, beneath the pain, she IS there, inside you. You're just focused on the "have nots", the EARLY experience of knowing her, and you're not relaxing deeply enough, to know her where she is NOW.

Meditate deeply enough within yourself, through yoga, deep sleep, whatever it takes, and you'll begin meeting her in dreams. When that happens, don't freak out, stay under, stay with her. It's so soothing, peaceful.

Typo: EARTHLY, not EARLY.

Thanks koolman for your responses. I have tried to relax and listen to her voice within me...I'm just not hearing it bad that is what's hurting me more than anything. Why can't she come to me and give me the peace to know that she is still very much alive.

My dad died in aug 10 years ago and my mom died 2 months later.....I still cry and scream everyday for them to take me home with them and there is NO release from the pain until I can get back to them....but of course I keep screwing that up too.....but does it get better...some days but over all you will never be the same...never....you are alone and until someone loses their mom they have nothing to say to you.....take care ....good luck

So very sorry for your loss.

Seems you got a double whammy---diagnosis and then 21 days later your mom was gone...hard to process one let alone both in such a short time.

For me losing loved ones changed everything for me. Pain is tough.

Sending positive vibes and some sunshine to you.