I am so very sorry for your loss. I can only imagine that kind of pain. I lost my father to cancer when he was only 46 and that was painful enough. It took a long time not to cry myself to sleep because I felt such a huge void in my heart. It will be nine years this May that he's been gone...
The best thing you can do for yourself right now is to continue grieving, honestly. But don't forget to live for your daughters at the same time. You can be sad, cry when needed, even listen to some sad music if it helps. Watch sad movies if it helps, too, like the movie "P.S. I Love You." If you like to keep a journal, keep one every time you feel that urge rise up in your heart and write as if your talking to your husband.
I understand that feeling of being lost and alone even though you're surrounded by people...it's because you feel disconnected. Time and love will help you heal. It just takes time. I pray for you peace and comfort, and know that you're not alone.

I am so sorry for you loss. I lost my husband last year 2 days after Christmas. He was 49 and we have a 12 year old and a 19 yr old. My heart has the same hole we were only married 12 years. You are not alone, there are so man of us here. HUGS!!!!

Thank you. I've tried so many help lines and have been trying to find support groups who deal with my situation or simlar. All I had was closed doors. I honestly thought I am alone through this. Now I see here is that I'm not alone and you have proven that to me. You have given me hope.

I am so sorry for your loss. I know what your going through, I lost my husband Oct. 29, 2014. He had cancer and he was so busy trying to fight the cancer that he forgot about living. It's very hard watching someone you love slowly go away, they die little by little. Everyone grieves differently allow your self time to do so. The biggest issue for me now is accepting that the past is gone; my way of life has changed and will never go back to what it was. People can be around to help or try to get your mind off things but with me I had to ask them to go home and give me some space for myself. I got so overwhelmed and that feeling scared me.

Your children are grieving too and need to know that it's okay to miss someone , to cry , to asked questions, ect. With time, the void starts to close but it doesn't happened over night. Peace be with you and your family. Hugs and Kisses sent you way

My heart goes out to you, I lost my husband in May 2014, I am still broken, we were married 46 years, the holidays were awful, but those children of yours will keep you going. The hardest thing for me was doing things by myself, we were together 24/7, As they say, you have your memories, but feel so alone, I have wonder ful friends and family but there is no one like your husband, feel free to email me if you want to talk, anytime.

Cheryl

There is a widow/widower support group on Daily Strength that is very supportive which may be of help to you. (((Hugs)))

You are brave to reach out and write about how you feel. The wodows and widowers support group has so many people feeling the same way and it really helps. My darling husband died two months ago and the shock and pain is tremendous. I still work and desl with regular lifw but my existence is completely different and completely solitary, even with four college age kids three still living at home I feel alone and am feeling like half of my life was ripped away. Keep writing and reading here if you can. It's good for you i believe.

Thank you. I spoke to the doctors today and think that mind or cruse would help. He didn't think councling at the surgery would help me and agreed meds are not right for me now. I've started on St John's wort and hope they will help even if it's a little bit.

Eeyore, I lost my beloved husband as well on 9-28-14. My heart is broken as he was and is the love of my life. I am 53 and my husband was 64. Our children are grown, married and live in another state. We moved to a warmer climate after I became disabled from an injury at work and a failed spinal surgery. Luckily my dear father and step mother moved here 2 yrs ago to take care of us. My husband had a bad heart, diabetes and Rheumatoid Arthritis, yet he was my caregiver and we shared so much love for one another. He went for all his checkups and all was fine. He was completely fine the night before he passed, so his passing was such a shock. I feel so lost without him and know what you are going through. My heart goes out to you and I will keep you in my prayers. I am here for you if you need someone to talk to. I know it would help us both.

I lost my husband to cancer three years ago today. He was 45, our children were 9, 4, 2 at the time. Take time for yourself, you need to take care of yourself, your kids need you.

just so very sorry, cant imagiann the pain