Everyone keeps telling me he is at a better place "in God's land" or "God only takes the best" bla bla. But what if you don't believe there is a "God". I just can't get my head around it to actually believe that there really is something. I just can't grasp that there can be someone or something so powerful like that. I do think that there is something else after death, but what that something is I don't even know. I just can't even explain it. My ex took his own life April last year. I just keep asking myself like where actually is he right now, is there really a heaven and is he there. God i'm probably typing a hole load of bull right now that noone can even understand don't even know where all of this is coming from. I just feel scared. Guess none of us will truly know what happens until our time. So until then its a mystery. Sorry about the random post and that I cant seem to be more specific. =/
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