The saying that time heals all wounds is just a saying.Only time does is make you aware of the realization that the person is not coming back and you must learn to deal with the stress of life everyday.I know.40 years ago,the love of my life married someone else as I watched in horror.And I grew to accept this.Marrying someone else isnt so bad.What is bad is not being able to tell them him or her how you really feel and not being able to be the mother of his children.I have never gotten over this.Hearts can be broken.But my heart broke on in 1969 and it has never healed.Of I have tried.I decided not to marry because my bi polar ism wasnt disagnoed as of yet and it is hereidy.I did not want to subject my husband or my children to my mood swings or rages.I did not want to subject my husband to my days of crying over nothing or my hurt feelings.I am bi polar Mania 2 and it is like the kind that Charlie Sheen has and it can be dangerous and hurtful to be around so I am asking forgiveness to anyone whom I have hurt in the pass and i will try to be nicer in the future.I will try to be kinder and more understanding.I will try not to be judgemental and try to laugh more,but he who laughs first laughs last and we are all human.Broken hearts can heal.Mine never did and other bull in the past that the the therapist cant seem to get to the jist of it all.I will never forget him.I will never forget him humor or his laugh.And I will always blame myself.You see my bi polar drove him away and I am so sorry I hurt the man that I have loved and i have hurt Brad also and with this I am crying and I am in the library asking forgiveness,.So all bi polars out there remember we can love again but we must forgive first and I am trying.With this I will end.Vader.