I am so very sorry for your loss... God bless you

There is a very active Widows and Widowers board on here that may be a good support for you...x

http://www.dailystrength.org/c/Widows-Widowers/support-group

I try to relax, I get plenty of sleep, I exercise, I try to form new relationships similar to the one I had with the one who departed this world.

I am so sorry about your husband. You mentioned in-laws. Do you have any relatives on your side? I agree sleep and exercise are important. I can only tell you what I did when I lost my Mom. I wanted to know what I was facing so I bought several books on grief. I also went to a grief group, and I got private counseling (which allowed me to also deal with some other issues). I have a couple of friends who were willing to listen. A note about friends. Pay attention and learn which ones are willing to help and which ones are feeling uncomfortable about it. Get a feel for their limits. I have read more than one story here on DS from someone who needed more support than their friends could offer, and the friends slowly drifted away. So they went from little emotional support to no support. Even friends who cant help you much can be good for spending time with to get your mind off it. Some people go through the so called stages of grief. Others take a different path. So what helped the most? It all helped. Taking actions to deal with the pain helped. Ultimately you have to assimilate the loss and adjust to a new chapter in your life. I know it sucks because you liked the old one so much. Just keep moving forward and dealing with it. You don't get completely over it but you do get through the pain (most of it anyway). If funding is an issue, I would start with books. You can get used ones on Amzn for cheap. And depending where you live you might find a grief support group through a hospice or hospital. And searching the web is free. There are lots of articles out there on this subject.

And lastly, keep posting here. And do read through other posts. There are hundreds of pages of threads here. You might see some great advice in another thread or come across a post that describes exactly how you feel.

God bless. Prayers sent
Scott

I am so sorry for your loss, do you have friends, close friends. My husband died last year, suddenly also, I think of him every moment of every day, driving, at night etc . But I force myself to be around people, and it gets easier and easier, time does help, but you do not forget. Some one is always in the Widows and Widowers group. Reach out.