You are doing all you can to keep yourself together under the circumstances. The support group along with this DS forum are good for you. I don't know how you were able to not give your sister a damn good slap. What a story. You had every right to remain in the home, it was your legal residence. You could have effectively booted her to the curb and called the cops. And then to have to rehome your pet. Hold your head up and know you were there for your mom all those years and caregiving isn't easy. Good for you. Have you considered getting involved with a local parish. Maybe offer respite help to others who are caring for loved ones and need a break. If your pain situation would allow it.

I hope your week is a good one and your emotional and physical pain aren't too bad. Hugs to you, Sandy

Thank you so much for your reply Sandy. I thought I was a strong person, but losing my mom has me hitting bottom. I've spent my entire life caring for others. I was a nurse for 26 years before I had to go on Disability because of severe chronic pain conditions. I found my dad dead very unexpectedly (13 years ago) at his young age of 63. I knew my mom was dying (we had Hospice), and I was the one who found her dead. My biggest fear in life has always been losing my mom...and now that it's happened I'm so lost and alone. I feel hopeless and heartbroken. My mom and I had been through so much together in life.My mom predicted my step sister would do this to me, but she really thought she would outlive my step father. I've been in contact with attorneys, the Constiples Office & the Police. No one can help me. My step father would have to stand up for me, and he won't. I have Nothing of my mother's. My step sister won't even allow me to have my mom's Recipe Box. I'm so lost and afraid I won't recover from the loss of my mom. I can't stop crying. I really need support and people to converse with who understand. I do go to Church, but haven't gone since losing my mom. I'm just to depressed to go.
Thank you SO much for your support! Kathy

Hello Willow,
I am so sorry to hear of all you've been through. I pray life will turn around for you and start bringing you better happier days. It's so difficult to lose parents. I'm still blessed to have mine. My mom and I are so close as you were with yours.
I hope you talk to her. I believe it helps. You must go on and continue to do the best you can. Don't let your step sister make you her victim. She will have to answer to her behavior when she meets the Lord. It's okay to go to church even if you cry there. That's where you need to find your strength and comfort. There are people there who will wrap you in a warm hug and I think you could use many hugs right now.
God Bless you and I hope you will find writing your pain and thoughts on these threads will bring you some comfort.

I know how you feel. I lost my mom weeks ago. I still cannot believe it. And she had a horrible, torturous death.

I am so sorry for your loss and I hope you are doing okay. I am sorry for the family drama you are going through. Hard enough to miss your mom with all your heart, but to be in the position of outlaying sibling issues is a true shame. Sorry about your dog, too. I wish I had more to give you than sympathy, but sometimes that is enough and I hope for this moment it is helpful to you.

So sorry for your loss and others who have posted here. I lost my mom the first week of Dec and most recently my 27 year old son. I found help grieving at my Lutheran church. I was going to church and crying too! I understand your devastation. The Stephen Ministry can help so I hope you will seek their services. I have gone through heart break loosing my loved ones. Let it out, cry, scream or write down your feelings. It will help but having a caring person to turn to is a must have! I pray for you to find peace and strength.

"I am attending a Grief Support Group that meets once a week. I want to meet people, but I cry too much to go out."

Um, other people in the support group will be crying too! Keep going to that support group.

Who owned the house? Did your Mom.leave the house to.you? Your evil step sister should not be allowed to walk all over you. You deserve to have the house you and your Mom.shared. you cared for her, you deserve to be in that house and to have your dog with you too. See what a lawyer says, you can get free advice from one. Ask your support for help.

Hugs

Dear Willow.. keep the faith hon ...
when we allow it He will take the pain ...
i know that is far easier said than done..

just over a year ago my mom, friend and confidant
went home to the Lord ... my sisters turned on me
and i literally lost my mind for a time ...
i still am not me ... but life begins to even out
at this point ... not better but not worse..

will hold you in pray hon
God bless you and help you smile
~huge hugs~