Last night I was talking to my lifelong friend and she told me her 12-year-old granddaughter has Hodgkin’s lymph Phoma. She’s going through chemo and has   Lost all her hair. My heart is breaking for this 12-year-old little girl and my best friend who is going through this. They say it has a good rate of being curable but no 12-year-old should have to go through this and neither should my friend.  My mom has been gone for almost 9 months, the car accident that killed her never should’ve happened and she should still be here, she was 86. I have spent the last almost 9 months  so unbelievably depressed, angry, and sad. When I heard the news about my friends granddaughter I felt guilty   I had 60 years with my mom and she does not know how many years she will have with her granddaughter   Everyone says God has a plan, maybe he needed my mom because of the person she was and of course I’m angry at him for taking her away from me but what kind of plan could God have for a 12-year-old little girl. I can’t even say  i’m praying for her because to me that would mean praying to God and I can’t. So I  I am going to Talk to my mom every day and tell her give your strength to this little girl and don’t let God take her from her family