Oh god, I am so sorry about your losses. You have certainly had more than your share of pain. I hope you can spend some time with her. And hospice offer grief counseling. I found it helpful. And do you have other family nearby to lean on during this rough time?

Thanks for commenting...I have a therapist and a cuckoo family that I’m usually the rock for...just tired...if it isn’t one thing it’s another...

I totally feel your pain on compounding grief and loss. Some days really do feel like this when we encounter multiple disasterous events one after another. Tak heart, tomorrow is a new day. One thing I've done which helps me put into perspective each new day, try starting your days out with finding one thing to be thankful for as soon as you pop your eyes open in the morning.
Each day is a gift, use your gift to continue the legacy that those who have passed on have left us to do good to those who are around us.
It's great that you are the "rock" that others lean upon, but try really hard to focus on self care and taking care of you.
I totally understand, my oldest sister died 10 years ago suddenly in her sleep and my middle sister has been struggling with a cancer diagnosis for the past 7 years and they are talking hospice soon. I get it. It sucks big time!! Praying for you my friend as we journey on together being the "rock". Take care of yourself too.

Uggggh Lynette
You're in my prayers!

Some periods in life just seem to be one hit after another---and we want to scream Make It Stop! Take care, hope you find a "rock" to lean on!

My wife died two years ago after her lung cancer metastasized to her brain and to her spine. Over the last year of her life she went from the vibrant and loved-by-all person that she once was to helplessly losing her dignity, the use of both arms and legs, eventually her mind, and finally her life. She was the light of my life then, and still now in spirit.

I cannot alleviate your pain, but I can give you guidance that will matter. I was with my wife continuously during her year of struggle. I literally had my arms around her at the moment of her death. I am still crushed by her loss and paralyzed with grief, but I have one enduring strength to fall back on. I can look myself in the mirror and know that I gave her everything I had even during the most unbearable low points of the struggle. Seize the time you have left with your aunt so that your look in the mirror will always give you that same strength.

To myself: I hope to explain correctly for my later recollection the coincidences that have occurred in the postings of the last two days. On 6/8/20 I posted my condolences to Lynette22's 5/8/20 posting regarding the metastasis of her aunt's lung cancer and its dire consequences to her and noted the tragic similarities to my wife's lung cancer from two years earlier. I treasured how much that time spent with my wife had meant to me and hoped that Lynette22 would be able to seize that same last opportunity for her memory. Scott46 had already posted the same sentiment to Lynette22 on 5/9/20. By random coincidence also on 6/8/20, SBBTTYS posted to Andromeda8 that "you never get over it when someone you loves dies" to which Andromeda8 responded on 6/8 20, "I agree. Death is the transition from the physical life to a spiritual life." Scott46 posted on 6/9/20 to SBBTTYS, "That is so true", and I also made a related posting on 6/9/20 to SBBTTYS. It further turns out that Lynette22 and Andromeda8 already knew each other through exchanged postings during this one month time period and had already shared the tragic past deaths of both of their fathers. These recollections are for me to understand myself the content and coincidental timing of all these various postings.
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I can understand what you are going through with your aunt..Cancer is just aweful.I lost my mom back in 1999.To complications of lung cancer.i hope your aunt gets to feeling better.