Absolutely normal and they will not be changing anytime soon. I mean they will get less and less intense, but I don't think you ever get over the loss and missing your loved one.
You ar being so hard on yourself honey. Heck even the other day I burst into the house and was going for the phone to call mom and shoot mom passed in 2004. Even after a year I would be driving to work and hear a song on the radio and just break down in tears.
I take great comfort in knowing my mom was always with me, even though not in the physical sense. Sounds strange but I have several pictures of her and at time I will go up to her and talk to her. I will touch her face and tell her how silky soft her face felt or I will touch her hands and tell her how much I wish she could hug me and tell me everything will be ok. And in a strange way I know she IS telling me everything is ok. We know best how and what our loved one would say and we answer the question...with their help.
Hang in there sweetheart:)

Yep, perfectly normal. Took me about 3 years to really, fully chill out, and the anxiety attacks, around the holidays, when my brother got sick, began to subside.

Yes my love, they are. Loving you, BARB xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I lost my Dad 3 months ago. Even though he had just celebrated his 95th birthday, I was still his "little girl". Lots of people tell me he lived a good, long life. That doesn't make it any easier for me. He is always on my mind. So, in answer to your question, it must be normal to feel as we do. I just hope through communicating with other people who have experienced a similar "tradegy", we can begin to heal and regain our lives. Take care and I will try to do the same.

I lost my Father a year ago July 30th. And I didn't allow myself to have the moments of tears, sadness and missing him that are needed to grieve. Don't let yourself NOT mourn. Allow for your sadness and you will find the healing that you need starting to begin. This does not mean you will not miss him or that your love for him goes away, but it will allow you to carry on with your life as your Dad would want you to. I was dealing with huge amounts of guilt because I had given my Father a kidney and all the Doctors had assured us it would last at least 20 years, but he passed away 10 years after receiving it. For some reason, even though logically I knew this was crazy, I felt it was my fault that he died. It took me a year to realize that their was 10 years of his life that he may not have had but did have to spend with myself and our family. So I am concentrating on the precious moments we had and allowing for moments of sadness at his passing when they come. And it is getting better now that I am no longer fighting those feelings that are unique to me. Your feelings are valid and important, please do not feel as if you are not allowed to mourn him or that you have only a certain time frame in which to do it. Your feelings are your own.