I'm so sorry for your loss. Losing a child must be the most difficult and hardest loss. You are very early in your grieving and are probably still very numb. I'm here for you any time you want to talk. I pray for you and just take it moment by moment for now. Hugs to you.

I am so very sorry for your loss. I could not imagine what it would be like to lose a child and so young.
I have had 3 loses through close friends. I held their hand the whole time through.
It is early and you are taking it minute by minute. And you probably could care less what others are telling you.
However, I promise you....it will start being good & bad hours, then days. The pain will go away, but the memory of your son will never leave you. They will start to make you laugh and smile. But it will take time.

i lost my wife of 15 yrs 5 months ago i didnt know why i was here either a friend that lost her son suggested it ...it help a little especially after putting my three young daughters to sleep everynight and having no one to talk to . lay down with and wake up with it still doesnt feel real hope you find help just let it all out write anything you want we are listening my thoughts and prayers are with you

I am new to this site and came across your post. I lost my 19 year old son on August 4, 2012. I know exactly what you are going through and feeling, there is nothing I can say to help you, but I can tell you the pain becomes more bareable. I am just 5 months in and I can function now, I think about him all the time, but not with the same pain as 2 months ago, my chest doesnt feel as tight any more, I dont have the anxiety attacks, I am somewhat in control of my feelings now. I am so sorry for your loss. I can only advise what helped me, I read every book I could get my hands on about the loss of a child, I joined a "mothers" group which I attend once a month and I belong to a website called grieving.com, there are alot of wonderful people on their under the heading "loss of a child" who have been dealing with this, they listen and they respond, it does help. Take care of yourself and feel free to contact me anytime.

Hi, I too am so so sorry for your loss. I lost my husband 12 weeks ago this Thursday. I don't know why I am here either. It is a club none of wanted to belong to. I have been coming to this site almost everyday since the two week mark. Some times it helps, sometimes it hurts. But here you say what you feel and everyone understands, and no one judges.

You are not alone.....Paula

Believe it or not, it does get better. My 19-yo son died on February 25, 2010. The worst day of my life. He passed away from a prescription drug overdose after a long illness (cancer).

I was desperate...he was my first born...I had spent 5 years with him in the hospital, his cancer was in remission, but his mind was not right.

Three years later, I'm in group therapy twice a week, have been put on anti-depressants, and am enjoying life as best I can. His urn is at the house and I talk to him every day. (Don't worry, he hasn't talked back, yet). One thing I do is have some of the plants he recieved at the funeral, along with his picture, and a few personal items, around his urn. It makes me feel like he's still with me in spirit. I've even gone so far as to put his mail there, too. After almost three years, the mail still comes, and I still give it to him.

I hope you can find peace at some point. It's going to take a long time. For me, it was about 2 1/5 years before I could get up the courage to have a good day. If you have a God, now would be the time to reach out to Him and pray for strength.

Deepest sympathy,
Heidi

I am so sorry for your loss. I too lost my youngest son on Jan 3 of this year. He was 37 yrs old. I had not seen him in 12 yrs & it was devastating. For me, today is hard. Sometimes it just doesn't seem real. Thank God for this site. Hang in there. I am told it does get easier with time.

HI~
I'm also new to this site! I lost my husband on 12/31/12 to liver disease we have 4 children (21,17,6 & 5) My 21 & 17 yr old were very upset with him (along with me for giving up) and he died infront on them in the ER after having a siezure (he never had them before) and w/ in an hour he was gone! My kids are sad they never got to say they are sorry and that they loved him! I fell apart and refused to go to the hospital.....he was my whole life and I couldn't watch him actually die! He was told if he took care of himself he could live till he was 90!! I also lost me BF/COUSIN Joseph @ 36 from Heart disease......I am glad I found this site reading some of your replies I now know I'm NOT alone in being so sad!!! ~Kelli

Oh I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my 2 and a half month old to SIDS a month and a half ago. He'd be four months old tomorrow. It's not quite the same but a loss of a child is hard for anyone regardless of the age. My prayers go out to you. Let yourself grieve and cherish the memories you have. He'll never be gone in spirit.

Hi Jeremy's Mom, I am heartbroken for your loss. It's just too cruel.
I lost my only son 21 years ago in an automobile accident. I did not get to say goodbye. He was in a car coming back from the beach - it was "Senior Week" with his high school buddies. He was 18 years old. They all fell asleep in the car, ran off the road. Tommy was killed outright, there was not a scratch on anyone else in the car.
The shock was unbelievable and I thought at the time it was unbearable. I was a divorced mom, had spent half my life as his mother. And then suddenly, one day, like you, I was not.
Let people help you. Most people do not know what to say to you. They cannot imagine how they would feel in your place. Some parents act like they think it's contagious and will avoid you. Forgive them.
If people ask what they can do for you, tell them to come sit with you. Just be with you, because the alone times, after work, especially dinner time, can be especially cruel. Don't go "out" if you don't feel like it. You will feel like an odd duck for a while, til you figure out who you are now. You are a different person now.
Be protective of yourself and your own health. If you pray, spend lots of time pouring your heart out, even silently. It helps to know He hears you and is suffering with you.
My mother told me after my son died that God needed him on the other side. There was work for him to do that only he could do, and so he was taken from here. It helped me to see that his life was not pointless. That he had been prepared for this work he had to do.
Please contact me if you want to talk about things that are going on with you. I still think of my son often, I wonder what he would look like now. If he would be married and have children. His whole life was before him and then it was over without warning.
Be kind to yourself.
Love and hugs,
Auntie Lisa