At the place I work the 'end of year' comes at the end of September. As part of the end of year process we are required to write an employee 'self appraisal' that highlights the employee's accomplishments and contributions to the organization over the past year. With low self-esteem and anxiety needless to say this has me in such a tail spin right now I am physically sick in trying to write this thing. The employee self-appraisal and the subsequent supervisory appraisal are the basis for raises, or lack thereof that will be given at the end of the year. I agonize over writing this thing. I hate writing about myself, hate calling attention to myself and fear that what I write will be dismissed, rejected or be overridden by what my supervisor writes about me. I was raised that you never boast about or call attention to the things that you do. Was also raised with criticism and belittling about my accomplishment, or lack thereof. Each year I go through this and spend weeks leading up to having to write this thing and put it off to the very end when it is due to be turned in to my supervisor. It get's so bad some times that there have been times that I have considered quitting my job rather than have to fill it out and face criticism and judgement. Just want to run away and hide and not have to face this stuff.