I have never had dreams like those. It is quite possible that you keep having these dreams because they are in the back of your mind. The past cannot be changed ruthgrps try not to focus on what isn't there anymore, focus instead of being grateful for who you are and what you do have, such as health, family, your self, traits you love about yourself, things you do that you like, places you enjoy and so on. Also search on youtube for a guided meditation for focusing on the now or for letting go of the past. When you have time also put on some headphones and listen to positive affirmations that you like. Good luck my friend. If the problem lies within you, so does the answer.

I pay no attention to my dreams anymore. I realize they are manifestations of the subconscious. As to being apologized to for a persons bad language, good! Maybe it shows respect for you. I’ve been apologized to also, many times. Maybe it is a vibe we give off? Or maybe people recognize that we hold ourself to higher standards? Who knows? For what it’s worth, maybe we could lighten up a bit, or maybe we are setting an example. I know I’m setting my goals to suit myself, not the rest of the world. I’m reminded of that old story about following somebody off a cliff. Don’t think I want to do that. How about you?

In my own case, allowing myself to practice self-care triggered a HUGE and hugely repressed guilt complex which had accumulated over the course of acquiring my PTSD. I was already keeping a dream journal to help get a handle on my epic nightmares. By exploring those dreams in formal therapy, I was able to get to the roots of my guilt complex and ply healing tools. Turns out that most of my guilt was for having been a victim of child abuse. The ultimate victim blaming.

It is not mine to sort, but my wandering wonder is if your recent, bold acts of self-care were the trigger for your current dream sequence. Just wondering. . .

Continued support while you sort your own theories.

Acknowledging those feelings expressed openly in writing is a huge step towards healing the hurt inside you.

Those kinds of dreams often come out when a care giver begins the process of 'taking care' of their well-being.

Take a moment to let go of those memories, and shape your view to fit what you want for yourself. Apology for swear words is a definite sign of respect.

To be honest, when it comes to not being invited to those events, it's often a blessing in disguise and appearances are not always what they seem to be.

A friend shared with me her experience with some of those events I was not invited to. It turned out that they isolated her because she was friends with me, and it took her years to get over the treatment she endured. We are still friends, and we do some things together that we missed doing through other circumstances.

Take a moment to consider those circumstances. What you are sharing now are 'memories'. Often, when you let the memory continue opening up, you see other details that make a better sense of proportion of what all was happening in the big picture.

You got this! Go for healing, taking care of you, and know you have all this support!

I don't know what that is about--I had it all last week, though--maybe its just free floating anxiety processing itself at night? It left me exhausted the next day--but maybe its a way of getting rid of the sting in real life? like I had one that my brother was late and I had to find him--we had somewhere to be (common theme with my brother) we were running all over the building and freaking out. When I woke up I remembered it and said," But he doesn't do that anymore he's learned better..." I invited him to dinner and he arrived right on time. and I didn't stress about it=at all. maybe you are clearing negative memories--that nursing exam is VERY hard---my friend's son took it 3 times before he passed it.

I think it is probably coming from your subconscious mind. I find myself having these dreams sometimes, and have come to realize that it is because I am stressing on the past too much. Letting go of resentment towards your old "friends" and your resentment towards yourself can help. I don't know if I'm reading too much into this, but you seem to really beat yourself up about mistakes you have made in the past. Forgiving yourself can allow you to have freedom and self-love. Also, do you think of these negative things before falling asleep? If so, something that may help is writing down 4 good things at the end of your day right before you go to sleep. Save these lists and read them often if you decide to do it; they can help you feel more positive.

Praying for you and hope you can have a peaceful night's rest!