I've been dreaming about everything I ever did wrong just recently from school onwards. Nothing major, like not working as hard as I should have in school, though I left with O levels, CSE's, and Pitman typing. At school I wasnt popular, I didnt seem to fit in, I got bullied far more than my parents ever knew, I was always the last to be picked at games, I knew why though it wasnt very nice. I just wasnt very good at sports. My so called friends did things without me, that years later I found out about, they had sleep overs I was never invited, they went shopping, I was never invited, they went to the seaside I was never asked, well only once! I was a good nurse, but gave up after failing the exams, purely because I didnt study that was my fault, but, even there I wasnt really part of our group I was on the outside. Mum brought me up to be a lady, and I feel in some ways its backfired on me, in school I just wanted to be popular, nursing group I wanted to feel part of our group I didnt. Even now and I am nearly 60 people appologies to me if they swear in front of me. Gareth (husband) says its me, its what I give off. I'd like some opinions on my dreams!
So just because the day keeps getting worse, I just found a red nodule cyst like thing on my 4 year old dogs paw. My dogs are obviously my saving grace.So now I have to just not breathe until I can get him to the vet.Make it stop, what have I done, really. It is one thing after another
I'm waiting for test results and figure itll be tommorow or the next day before I hear anything. I have had a good week now and this morning I believe I am having relapse symptoms. Same symptoms I had when this began. This morning I'm at the salon getting my hair done. It was past the point of touching up. I try to have it professionally done every 3 or 3 months and in between touch up...