So since I was a kid, I've had problems on and off with anxiety. I was diagnosed with PTSD (after 911), and severe anxiety. I used to get panic attacks on a regular basis, and I missed so many days of school because of it that I was almost held back. I used to have such a hard time dealing with my anxiety that I would get horrible migraines (and still do, just not as frequently). I thought I had a pretty good control on it, though, after going through some therapy, and learning some skills to deal with it. However, the recent stress caused by my transition into college and some personal issues has left me feeling rather strange. I consistently feel kind of empty or numb. I'm not sure exactly what I feel. I have fleeting moments of happiness, but they are almost always followed by this numb feeling. Either that or I have a panic attack.

I just feel so terrible lately. Some days I just sit in my dorm room and cry for what feels like hours. I think there is something wrong. I have even resorted to drinking, smoking cigarettes, and I have experimented with marijuana. Its not healthy. And its not helping me. Ive cut down on my smoking, and I have done away with drinking and doing any kind of drug, but I still feel so weird all the time. I don't feel like I know myself anymore. There is a counseling center here at school, but I'm not sure if I should go. I just don't want any judgement from them. I know counselors are supposed to be neutral, but I'm not so sure everyone would be equally neutral on my personal issue. I'm struggling with my identity, and I have almost no support from my parents. I don't know what to do.

Should I try the counseling center? Or is there something else any of you would suggest? Thanks.