Yep! i hear ya! I take Ativan, which is also a benzo very similar to Xanax. I dont want to take my medicine because i dont want to need it. I want to be able to get through this on my own, and i dont want my body getting used to it. But i realize i need it at night... I started cutting my pills in half. So instead of taking 0.5mg i only take .25mg and it helps enough so i can relax and sleep. i have decided taking a baby dose of it at night is OK because ive been having so many panic attacks at night that if it will help to keep them away then so be it.

If you are feeling a panic attack, dont be afraid to take it. I find that having thoughts of being scared to take it only further fuels my anxiety. And if you are having any issues or concerns with the xanax dont be afraid to tell your doctor!

I have the same thing...I feel so dumb for feeling that way but in the end I just talk myself and tell myself that it will be okay and that it will be better if i do

I have medication phobia. I am always scared to take medication, even if it is not new to me. If it is new, it makes it even harder.

I try not to take Xanax unless I really have to. This causes me to rely and implement the things that I learned in therapy and in my own research such as diaphragm breathing and self hypnosis. In this way, I use Xanax as an occasional aid when nothing else is proving effective rather than using it as a constant crutch and becoming reliant upon it.

Yet, there have been times that I should have taken a Xanax and I did not. I constantly struggle to define for myself when I should use it as an aid and when I should practice what I have learned to manage my anxiety and panic attacks.

I hope that one day that I will be well enough that I will not need Xanax. Right now, that day seems so very far away.

Anyways, my recommendation is to take it if you have to and use it as an aid but don't allow yourself to become reliant upon it as your sole means of coping with anxiety.

Using it as a temporary measure to help is what it's there for. Take it and know that you are helping your self get better both short term and long term which needs a little boost every now and then.