Hi, I'm right there with you. I don't have the answers, but we're all going through it. You're not alone. Try and let go and the answers will come.

I don't know how to let go my mind don't let it.

I'm sick of feeling ok one min then sick the next, I can't even eat dinner without my heart beating out my chest and panic, the simplest things in life I can't do. I can't get excited watching a sports game, boom I panic. If I laugh to hard. It's so messed up

Set up a simple task list and mark off items as you finish them. This will help you to be in the moment. Sip water. Put a cool cloth on your face and neck. Do relaxation exercises. Get up, move around, and put your focus on "now".

Have you been to a therapist? Talking about your problems with a therapist that specializes in anxiety or at least deals with it. You may need medication also. I know I did.

uknone244,

If you are not seeing someone or taking meds, it sounds like you might consider that. I was in a similar situation about 7 years ago. I was married with a young child. It was a terrible relationship. That, plus anxiety, compounds and made me feel ill as well. Medication helps my anxiety a lot, and I did end up leaving my spouse. I would recommend that you try meds and counseling first without making a decision on your relationship, unless you are in some sort of physical danger.

I've tried numerous therapist and I have been on medications for years with no relief unless it's a high does it a benzo and then of course I'm a zombie

Odd sounding suggestion, but try it for me, and for your son, your husband, and yourself. Find your local health food store, they should sell something called edible grade diatomaceous earth. It's something that you mix in a drink once a day on an empty stomach, increasing slowly... it makes me feel a lot better, and actually really need to start using it daily again myself. It also helps my mom love without fibromyalgia pains. If it doesn't put you totally back on track send me a private message, as it sounds like your going through the same thing I am now, which I don't want to post about causing worry for others, though I believe it may be the underlying cause of anxiety for many of us. Also, try using a vitamin blend of vitamin D and vitamin K2, one kills bad stuff, and he other breaks it down so it stay in our body blocking the passage of blood flow. Lemme know how it goes....