last few days I have been inconsiderable anxiety.  I had an appointment to see a doctor to do with a possible stroke.  But I couldnt go as Emma was ill with nausea and feeling generally unwell.  Cant say I wasnt annoyed about it I was, not that I let it syohow.   I now have to wait ffor another appointment to be sent to me.  I have no one that I can leave Emma with, able to look after her,  If I could drive I coulld have gone,but I dont, so I am stuck.  No close family, they live further uup the valley  and probably wouldnt anyway,you have to know how to cope with epilepy seiaure among other things.  I feel that my health is just takes a back seat.  One night I considered suicide, but I know they woouldnt be able to cope. Gareth falls regularly and sight is going, Emma just has a plethora of medical problems and me so do I.

Going to Mistletoe market to do with the church, hopefully  my nervousness will feel better.