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angelscrydragon
angelscrydragon

I have never considered myself to be suicidal, but today especially I find myself thinking about death, about just not being anymore.



I am pretty sure I am in the middle of a mental breakdown, but I can't seem to stop it. I keep fighting with myself over whether or not to just stop, but when can I. When can I get myself taken care of? The answer that I keep seeing tells me just to go fuck myself because I don't deserve to be taken care of. And it is all my fault because I can't talk to anyone about how I feel. 


I can't be uncomfortable (being half-naked in front of a window) without it negatively affecting my relationship. I can't be uncomfortable because my husband gets mad if I am unable to be apart of the conversation, and if my husband gets mad, it could mean getting me or the rest of my family hurt. So I can't be uncomfortable, or angry, or hurt by anything that is going on in my life.

arfie
arfie
Uh-oh. . . Do I hear the heartbreak of a soul fresh out of a domestic tit-for-tat skirmish? I always feel somewhere between death and hell for weeks after a bloody skirmish. Domestic tit-for-tat gets my vote as the most brutal sport in human history and everybody seems to do it in one form or another.

Forgive me if I guessed wrong. Gentle support while you recover from this downturn, whatever the source.
HopefulBabee
HopefulBabee
You are a beautiful human being and please don't let anyone or anything make you feel otherwise! I would recommend talking to a therapist. I'm sorry that you are not able to express yourself and have someone that supports you through everything (the good and the bad) that you are going through. Please seek help and know that there are people that care. Sending hugs <3
eli_mom
eli_mom
I’m so sorry that you feel this way.
I hope you can have someone to talk to, someone you can trust to listen to how you feel and encourage you. Please keep us posted. We are here and we care for you.

Praying for you peace and strength to keep you going each day. Take care of yourself. Please stay strong.
angelscrydragon
angelscrydragon
Today seems betterish. Not every thought is about how low I am. I would say probably half my thoughts...
I still feel like crap though. I still feel like I am not really allowed to show how I feel about things.
Part of me wonders if it would feel better to have a reaction every time I get mad or upset. Just start carrying a bat around that way I can just smack something... Then I rethink it because I think I would end up hurting everything, and then have no nice things, and it would be all my fault.
Blessed2674
Blessed2674
angelascrydragon, I am so sorry that you are feeling this way. I would strongly suggest that you stop worrying about everyone else and how your husband is going to react and get yourself some help - find a counselor (1-855-771-HELP (4357) weekdays from 6:00 a.m. to 8:00 p.m. (Mountain Time)), call the suicide hotline, walk into your nearest emergency room, please do not keep on like this. I am praying that you get help ASAP!!
Curtis.A
Curtis.A
Hello angle, you deserve to be taken care of and as a matter of fact, you deserve all the love and support. My late wife had a case as yours but lost her some years ago. I just hope your husbands understands and give you the attention you need. You are well love and never forget you are an angel.
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