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Started out strong.... and then.....

ddree
ddree

Today I started out strong.  I felt really good up until about 4pm.  With my job I literally have to be on and the cheery presenter all of the time.  It's taxing.  When I leave work I literally shut down.  I clam up and insecurities race in.  I begin to panic and worry.  No one I work with has any idea as they see the 'on me' who "rocks" what I do.  I get so tired and worn out putting on this facade each and every day.   I try to focus on healthy foods and healthy choices but come night I no longer care anymore.  Wine, popcorn, cheese, all comes out and I hide away from everyone.  I feel like when it is just me, I shouldn't feel this way... I should be greatful.  I should be thankful.  I should be happy.   Good girls don't think this way, they don't worry like this nor shut themselves away.  Good girls don't want a glass of wine to slow their racing heart and mind.  Sigh..........   I felt good all day, darn it!   Why am I now struggling?

Community LeaderMid
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You need to be "on" for you, to relax in "on", and appreciate your strength for you.

You are looking for something that is already present, and it's fine to do things different to appreciate your self.

Best wishes.
ddree
ddree
I definitely need to find a balance.... slow down a tad during the day and find a way to transition and give myself permission at night. Working on it.....
nightingale77
nightingale77
I can understand that putting on a facade all too well.... Some time ago tt was how i lived for a while until i realised i can pretend no more. It was hard and taxing, physically and emotionally. Worse when people around you seemed to be ‘rocking’ all the time or how some people commented how much they admire your strength and all the ‘put together’ apearance. I finally decided to be vulnerable. I decided it’s ok to fail sometimes. If wine, popcorn and cheese help you feel all better, by all means! Allow yourself the time in the evening to decompress. Give yourself permission to do that. Don’t be too hard on yourself. Take care and be well. May God’s peace be with you always.
3petsandme
3petsandme
I totally understand this, I was a fitness instructor for 10 years with a huge following. Mostly I enjoyed it as I was "real" laughed at myself and hopefully inspired others. However, on a down day, trying to be upbeat and motivating was painful, incredibly draining when all you wanted to do was be on your own. You deserve to close yourself off and enjoy your own company. Equally make a date to be with friends every now and then. That is healthy and will make you feel good so that you can enjoy your alone time.
ddree
ddree
Thanks everyone. I really appreciate the support. I feel like a complete roller coaster and I need to figure out a balance. It is SO hard for me.
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