I just popped on here to check the post feed, and there are two new posts about experiencing dread today and I'm in the same boat! Today is the one year anniversary of the first of a series of panic attacks/2-3 day depressive episodes that I had last year from "today last year" until September, initiated by a difficult and failed conversation with my then-boss. It is also the day that my husband returns from being away for 2 months and barely sharing anything about his work days. I have been near hyperventilating all morning trying to stave off the anxiety and near panic - lots associated with that - feelings of not getting enough done while he was gone, enjoying being alone (with my 3 kids) with him gone, being proud of myself for being fully competent as a temporary "single parent" for the 2 months, feeling like he is a stranger coming back, fear that he will be angry with me for any reason (justifiable or not), fear that he will yell at me for some reason (serious fear and that is common way for his to "express" himself even though he woudl never physical hurt me, and I legit just bear a general fear of being yelled at by family members, teachers, or employers (but the latter 2 I can walk away from!!!) and I'm working on that with my counselor.
So, I'm posting less for requesting support, and more just to note the oddness that the top two posts listed were about feeling dread today! And I'm feeling it with you!!!! Maybe there is something in the air? or something in the stars if anyone follows that kind of stuff.
Anyways, hugs, deep breathing, focusing, and calm for all of us. And peace.
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