Thank you simpsonsok I just want this nightmare to end I feel it never will. I will call the doctors first thing

Pugzugirl,
Don't try to diagnose yourself. It doesn't help. I know because I have anxiety disorder, and it's not fun. Sweetie, just take down what is happening to you and share it with your doctor. Hugs to you.
Princess Lynnie

Thank you Princess Lonnie hoping it’s nothing to bad

Do you have panic disorder? I sometimes mix my anxiety and my panic together. Stay away from Dr Google! I only look at factual data when I feel an attack coming on. For example, looking at how panic or anxiety can't harm you, it's an unpleasant feeling, or it's our body's way of dealing with stress. Hope that helps.

PS I wrote that after having a horrible panic attack with gut wrenching thoughts so I understand!

Try to distract yourself with positive thoughts and feelings When my mind starts racing with bad stuff and I can't sleep, I think about my garden. I plan what I will plant and where I will plant it. It doesn't matter if the garden ever gets planted. I enjoy planning it and takes me away from negative thoughts.

I so sorry you are going through this, but you are not alone. Several people have felt exactly what you are going through. The easiest way to deal with this is to find help. Your doctor or a group that deals with anxiety would be a place to start. My granddaughter has dealt with this for years and her therapist tells her to stop locking herself up in her room, get out and exercise and get fresh air. She also told her to keep a gratitude journal. She started out just writing 5 things in it every night, before going to sleep. But then it got much easier and started lifting her spirits. Hoping you can find the help you are needing very soon.

I have it to because I grow up with no friends so I can’t be myself some time in public and I don’t know what to do with other stuff I deal with

Was thinking about you today and was hoping you had found a way of dealing with your problems. I know that it's not easy but if you can just find that inner strength to reach out for help you will find a whole new life for yourself. There is some reading on List.ly Troubled With called "looking up from the stubborn darkness" that might be helpful for you.