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Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...

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zazzers 09/23/2008

Ok....sigh...ok. If you have read any of my posts (or silly blog - which I have been pushing like a mad woman) you know that I have major panic issues with walking the streets or taking the subway (I live in NYC). Well this morning I got a cab to work - like any other day (my poor broke butt!). BUT, ugh...BUT The UN General Assembly is going on (Including Bush and Palin being here) - so security is SUPER tight...and they shut down so many streets that there is insane grid-lock. I was stuck! I have never EVER seen traffic like this. $14 and we went NOWHERE! I was running late for work and had no choice...but to TAKE A SUBWAY! I started to cry in the back of the cab. I kept telling myself this is good for me and to push forward. So I did. The last time I was on a subway was early July with my exposure therapy doctor. It was about 96 degrees and we stupidly got in the only car with no air-conditioning. I kind of flipped out and told him I would never take a subway again. Ok...a bit dramatic...but what was he thinking pushing me on such a hot day? (Before that day I had not been on the subway in about a year). So, back to today. I was OK. A touch stressed...but really ok. What? Who said that? I will have to take a subway home tonight as well. The funny thing (as if this was not all ridiculous to start with)...my subway ride is only 6 minutes! I'm such a dork. My chemicals are WAY more balanced now (god bless Trileptal). This could be the big breakthrough me and my doctor have been waiting for. Such drama...but a good tale. Phew.

for the lovely backstory visit my blog (haha!)
http://themanicblogger.blogspot.com/

deleted_user 09/23/2008

Congrats! That's such a big breakthrough. Sometimes we have to push ourselves and at times there is no option but to deal with things head on.

I hope this is a permanent step...go you! =)

deleted_user 09/23/2008

The only way to overcome your fears is to face them.
You did, and you did a good job with it !

zazzers 09/23/2008

Thanks guys! And thanks for the virtual hugs! Ok...time for round 2. Heading out into the Times Square madness to hop my subway home. Grrrr. Ok. ugh.

4mytasha 09/23/2008

Ha! I can ONLY wish that facing my fears is all it takes.
NOT for me anyway. :(
I face them everyday and sorry to be so glum but the next time I do it is JUST as hard!!

Zazzers~If it's working for you, that makes me VERY happy for you!!!

zazzers 09/23/2008

Well...I made it alive. I wouldn't call it facing my fears with a brave face...it's more kicking and screaming like a 4 year old. But I did it. I made it home. I walked the streets and I will have to do it all again tomorrow morning. I just let out a big rant on my blog and feel better now. I feel so stupid for making such a big deal of something so simple for others. I think you can all relate to that...right? Yes? Maybe? Ugh...what a friggen day. (But I do feel a touch proud at this moment too).

4mytasha - I have a team of doctors to help me fight this. That first call was the big step. I hate my Exposure Therapy doctor every step of the way...but I can't live like this anymore. Dude - exposure...pushing...trying...fighting...facing my fears...it sucks every step - every moment and maybe some day...I will be ok because I tried.

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