hiya-welcome! I don't think it's stupid...it sounds pretty familiar to me! I am sorry to hear about your brother--I went through something like this last year and it took a lot to get back on track---but it can be done--have you thought about going to a therapist? I lucked into a great one who talked me down and made me see I had options,,,that I could always roll with the punches---that was really hard to see when I first walked in that door! I hope you feel better soon!

well, I had a psychologist (or whatever) who I went to who prescribed my meds but didn't help me that much. I actually have went to an OCD support group which has done a lot for me. I've seen a lot of therapists over the years but none of them has told me what I needed to know and ultimately what I figured out for myself. Right now I get more bang for my buck with other people in little groups who have gone through anxiety or OCD also.

I've got a book too that I've been working through that has helped me. One of the reason for my problems over the years has been self esteem which came about because I was born with siblings so much older than me and I didn't feel like I belonged. My anxiety comes from feeling I need to be perfect or near perfect in order to continue to feel worthwhile.

One of the reason for my problems over the years has been self esteem which came about because I was born with siblings so much older than me and I didn't feel like I belonged. My anxiety comes from feeling I need to be perfect or near perfect in order to continue to feel worthwhile.



This is exactly how I feel. "

I have the worst anxiety. I'm 23 years old who's a year through her MBA and I just got a job with a company who was just rated in Yahoo number one for haveing the worst CEO in America.
My job stressed me out. It shouldn't because I'm only working for the company for 6 months on a contract but ever since I started it's been hell.
My boss is a nightmare to deal with. She calls me a "hot mess", said there's other people that are smarter than me, that I'm too slow, and yells a lot. She even told my coworker in a conversation, "what do you know about marriage you've been divorced twice"
this woman is so unprofessional and I don't know what to do.
I come home from work miserable, I cry , I have panic attacks all throguhout the day and now it's affecting my personal life and school.
I want to quit but it's a tough job market.
Do you guys have any suggestions on what I could do? This woman is ruining my life

Jeff, I do the same thing... I start with on thought like yours (losing your job) or anything and it exploding to my life totally blowing up and falling apart. It is just how I am. My husband has gotten used to it... he commonly says to me, "Oh Boy... here we go again" When I make a typical comment that is the beginning of my explosion. He has learned to help me refocus my energy. I think his support has helped. My mother is very supportive and knowing I need to hold it all together for my precious daughter has helped to create a better world for me.

Therapy was the best thing I ever did though.