I hope your husband will change his mind so you can retire, its tough with health issues to have such a demanding job, I know because I've been there, the greatest day was when I got to retire but I was 60 and had worked 42 years, almost did me in. With fibro comes others issues and its so hard on our body when we get stressed and with pain its hard to get a good night sleep. Sorry you have all this going on and others might give you some ideas. Big hug and this is a very good support group with lots of nice people that understand. xx

Anxiety fibromyalgia is no fun. Part of healing the nerve endings to a better balance takes a combination of changing your thought pattern, and using movement to release the tensed areas naturally.
Keeping a journal will help you figure the pattern of pain movement so you can work out those first movements to release naturally.
Make a positive Sunday night routine to help you relax and be prepared for the next day.
Stay hydrated, keep moving gently, and know you are doing wonderful! Best wishes!

Thank you for the kind replies. Leeann33, I have made it almost as long as you, I am 59 & have worked 40 years, just 19 at this job. I feel worn out. My back injury resulted in severe injury to my L3 & L4 nerves, resulting in very painful radiculopathy down my leg. After 2 failed surgeries, I ended up getting a spinal cord stimulator implanted. Mideyebrow, I like your suggestions, and will start journaling, and implementing them. Thanks for the positive feedback!

Happy New Year Dovie!! Bless you my child, been there done that and it almost killed me. I worked for 40 years also, worked in the medical field the last 20, I loved what I did if only I could have done it alone. Like you said, my anxiety turned into panic attacks.......almost every Sunday and half way through Monday. I am sure if your DH truly knew how you really fear stepping into that torture chamber each week. I am sure its not like that but to us experiencing it, it is. Since your injury and not being able to bounce back why not file for disability? Sounds like you deserve it. Talk to your DH about quitting and filing for disability. Most men are concerned something may happen and your future will be unstable financially.

It took 5 years for me to get disability, it took an attorney to get it done. Fibromyalgia was my primary diagnosis then the panic attacks, overweight, OA, and several other problems. Not able to see a Dr. due to being unemployed also made it harder, until I found a free clinic. They saved my life.

Have you talked to your Dr. about any of this? He can help or suggest a specialist for your current condition. Just don't wait too long and tell your husband what a happier household he would come home to everyday. When Momma is happy, everybody is happy.

Thank you 2GraceFULL!! I have thought about disability but when I mentioned it to my primary care doc she said it is only for people who absolutely can't work. I didn't pursue it, and knew she wasn't going to help. I am thinking about scheduling a consultation with an attorney who takes SSD cases to get an opinion on how strong my case would be. I don't want a big ugly confrontation with my husband, but I am feeling like I need to stop waiting for his permission, and do what is best for me. Thank you again for the kind words!

Dovie, The SSD attorney doesn't get paid until you get your benefits. That may make your DH a little less stressed. Hope you get the answers you need and deserve. Remember you did work for these benefits.

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Last Thurs I had a new therapist at PT. He asked me what I did for a living, and gave me tips on supporting my back & posture. Then when he touched my neck he said, kind of alarmed "Is there any way you can retire in the next few months? I feel so much arthritis in your neck & if you can't we are going to have to do things to protect your neck." When I told DH, we had a good discussion, and decided I will retire May 1st. I felt so happy & so relieved!! Then yesterday when I told someone DH said no it won't be that soon. Then today I told our son & again DH said no, we aren't rushing into this, that is too soon & we aren't doing it. I have decided I am not backing down. We need to discuss it like 2 adults in a partnership. Not one bullying the other and acting like a grumpy parent. So I am sure he will be screaming & yelling 30 seconds into the discussion, his way of "discussing" (a topic for another day). I feel being screamed & yelled at for the last 30 years has contributed to my health issues. So, I will be submitting my retirement notice at work tomorrow. Please keep me in your prayers.