I have always needed a certain amount of time to myself.  Always!  I like being with people to an extent and then when I get in my car, I am relieved to be alone, with my own thoughts, music, mission.  Or when my sister-in-law used to come help me clean, I was thrilled when she left.  Ah!  I have been getting calls from my health insurance company since Christmas Eve to schedule a well visit.  I don't want anyone here!  Folks, I don't even want a man in my life.  He would just take up too much of my time and energy.  So the point of my post is that I am haunted by the fact that my friend called me 5 weeks ago, while I was getting my hair done, and I do not feel like calling her back.  I hate that she wins about talking on the phone versus texting.  I had already talked with her about 2 weeks before that.  I didn't need to talk to her again so soon.  She keeps me on the phone for an hour.  I was going to call her from the laundromat last Sunday but it was just too loud in there.  We also have different schedules.  I am a morning person.  Up at 4 or 5 a.m. and in bed by 7 or 8 p.m. most nights.  She sleeps in and spends most of her life in her bedroom.  Oh, she called me while I was at work on Thursday.  She always calls at a bad time.  i effing hate it!  In addition to everything, I have been very busy between damaging my car pulling out of the driveway and getting estimates for that and dealing with the insurance company and then the fact that I sent my brother a picture of a car that was a super great buy, knowing that would open a can of worms.  So I was dealing with my brothers for about 5 weeks about getting a new car.  I really didn't want a new car.  I have put about $6,000 into my Altima in less than 2 years since I started my job.  I just thought that the car that was a good deal was the deal of the century.  My brothers pretty much begged me to let them help me get a new car.  I had a doctor's appointment in Glassboro and my brother said another car that I may be interested in was right down the street so I felt obligated to go look at it.  Well, the cars were pretty much snow covered but I fell in love with what I could see of the Altima.  So we went there to see the Altima, going by my brother's work hours.  Both of my brothers that live near me came and the Altima had just been sold 30 minutes before we got there.  So the salesman brought the Sentra up and it felt like a Brenda car.  We bought it.  There was a little problem.  They don't tell you until you are ready to sign papers but they add a $995 anti-theft device to your bill.  It is in every one of their cars.  My one brother had a fit on the phone, because he had taken off.  He said to have them take it out.  They would not do that.  But anyway, there's a whole thing that went on about not getting the link to tihis device, or so I thought.  I got that resolved yesterday.  So I have been super busy, took my family out to dinner for helping me buy the car and went to lunch with my one brother twice.  I'm getting anxious writing this.  There's more to the story.  But I just haven't had a chance to get back to my friend, other than when I was at the laundromat, which didn't work out.  Today, my brother and I are visiting our Aunt in the nursing home and then we are going to Chili's.  Yesterday, I got my hair done, went to the gym and 3 stores.  i thought that I would have energy to call this girl but I just wanted to play on my phone.  I am into self-care.  I used to be everything to everybody and i suffered a lot and was angry a lot.  I used to ask my cat "Kato, what is going on?" because I was just pulled in so many different directions.  Also, I thought I had a big project for the Class Reunion Committee but now I don't have to do it.  I tried doing my taxes and that got all screwed up and i ended up on the phone with McAffee for over an hour because I got pop-ups on my phone and yada, yada, yada.  Well, I have to eat my lunch and make a sandwich for my Aunt.  Signing off . . . thanks for letting me vent.