You have and hold your most precious treasure - your daughter. She is with you and I assume in good health. Look and your daughter and hold her tight. That is one good thing you have.

Unfortunately, with everything going on, she is not with me. She is with my mother. Every chance I get I hold her tight and cry. She is definitely the greatest thing in my life at the moment.

BTW yes she is in good health. The other part that makes all of this hard is finding out my mother is in early stages of Uterine Cancer and my brother finding out he has lesions on his vocal cords that could be cancerous.

im sorry nykrystal426 :( i feel verey much the same way lately, been this way and progressively getting worse by the day. i think, at least for me, its the added stress of covid and the rioting etc. i just cant seem to get a grip and get out in front. i come close but then just miss. if you want to chat...............

and as for the children, i do the same. however wrong it may be to lean on my babies, i do!!!!!!!

im def. on a downward spiral. next is cant leave the house, after that itll be cant leave bed and count my breath to get to the next day :(

@here ... we both just need to stay positive. we will get through all of this. I have to look forward and not backward.

During the late 60's/early 70's, life as a homeless teenage prostitute looked pretty bleak. A therapy breakthrough for me was finding the positives which were already in my life, even in those grim circumstances. Turns out they were great building blocks for an interesting life.

Fast forward half a century and you find a senior citizen and 3 newly inherited orphans (ages 6 and under) beginning a socially marginalized life within the masked, socially distanced wisdom of Coronaville. I find senior me feeling even less optimistic than teenage prostitute me.

One of my sisters-in-healing here on DS has been engaging me in shared gratitude exercises. Hope is still hard to come by, but the gratitude exercises seem to be helping.

Quick, without over thinking, look around your immediate surroundings and name 3 things to be grateful for.

1) I am grateful for the therapy support friends who help me feel less marginalized in the masked social distance of Coronaville.

2) I am grateful for the lively dance of the tree branches outside my window.

3) I am grateful for my chickens whose hyper-vigilant nature somehow grounds my hyper-vigilant psychoses(pl)

Remind yourself you are doing the best you can for your self each and every day. Praise yourself in the mirror for three things each day.

Best wishes as you find your better balance.