Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
I was on 200mg of sertraline for 8 years and then in March started tapering down to 50mg bc my husband and I wanted to see if I could get off meds in case we decided to get pregnant. I was best when I was above the 50 dose, but was still able to feel ok on 50 but with some more downs than on the high doses. But i figured i'd ride it out.
I got a new job in the beginning of November and the week leading up i started noticing my anxiety/depression creeping back and i was abnormally nervous to start, for no apparent reason. Then it hit me really really hard the first day and I didnt even know if i could make it in the second day bc of crippling anxiety. I cried the whole first week and was so confused bc there was nothing wrong with the job or people, so I knew it must've been deeper.
My psychiatrist had me increase slowly back up to 200mg over a 4 week period and I hardly feel better. I increased to 200mg last night. Sleep has been really hard. I've been needing to take xanax every night;( Then during the day I'm really tired and it heightens my anxiety.
Some days, I feel like I haven't progressed at all and am back to square 1. I'm feeling super duper defeated and worried that it won't help and I'll just blame it on my job and quit and be a hermit:( So dramatic, I know. I just want to feel like myself again and stop blaming the job bc i actually do like it.
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Years ago, I won a mirrored armoire from my job. It's in my bedroom but I rarely stand in front of it. Yesterday, I had to have a dexascan done so I had to change into a gown. There was a full length mirror in the changing room. I'm aware that I gained 5 to 7 pounds over the last year from cheating on Keto but I didn't know what it looked like. It was a reality check.
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"don't be a hate hole" has been one of my recent mantras which seems to be escaping my mouth more and more often. it emerges when i am faced with the endless list of chores i would rather not deal with. insurance. head lice. bureaucracy. in-laws. the list goes on and on and on and on, ad infinitum.reality checks requested. am i making sense?"ever'thin they is but loving leaves a rust on your...
The thing with medicine, it can level out chemical balance temporarily. It does NOT balance the feelings, just sort of numbs it in my experience.
Use your journal to help you see the changes in the thinking pattern.
I can see what you've written shows your pattern (from my perspective only) and three things I would add to the toolkit to bring your thought pattern forward. First thing every morning, face yourself in the light and praise what you are doing.
Second thing, stay hydrated, and focus "in the moment". Third thing, journal all the feelings, the emotions, the thoughts, and then set it aside to look at later.
The more you focus in the moment through those feelings, the easier it will be to pick up the things that work to get you back in balance naturally.
There's nothing wrong with taking medication to help feel better, There's nothing wrong with feeling all across the low-high. There's nothing wrong with using words to display your feelings as long as you include positive words to help you meet the balance. low-even-high No matter how I'm feeling, I feel better when I smile. So every morning, I smile until I feel it inside lifting my feelings to a comfortable level.
Hope this help!
yes, I definitely have to start keeping a consistent record of how i feel on a daily basis.
The Zoloft has always helped my feelings stabilize in the past so I'm just trying really hard to be patient, it just gets really tough when I have a full time job and have to act like I'm fine during the day.
I talked with my mom last night and she reminded me how long it took all the other times I increased my dose--I think it took about 3 months, but at that point i was starting from zero bc I wasnt on zoloft. So I'm hoping that it won't take as long to full the effects this time since I was already on it before I increased my dose.
I'm wondering if the up and down days are normal and hope that sleep gets better!