Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
Don't get me wrong, I'm not an overly depressed person.. it takes a fair bit for me to get really down, to not want to face another day.
No, for me, it's fear.. fear that curls up inside you and like a corrosive acid spreading through each part of my body numbing me into a sense of being paralyzed in sharp pain and hatred for motivation.
About 4 years ago I was diagnosed with severe anxiety linked arms with a dissociation disorder. Anything else I just refer to as a symptom of the Anxiety.
I hate people, I hate being left alone in my head. I have agoraphobia, so for me... the supermarket may as well be the equivalent of walking through a fire pit, unenjoyable to say the least.
I forget where I am, and I'm completely unable to control certain parts of my varied personalities.
I live a life of nonexistence, In my own head anyway. I've been on more SSRIs than I can literally remember the names of, mood stabilizers. Eventually (after 2 and a half years) they realized that none of this works. I now take Sodium Valproate Sandoz, and Valium. In two weeks my doctor has admitted me into a psychiatric hospital in hope that they'll be more effective than my prescribed drugs and self medicating.
I'm sick of analyzing people and situations into dream like delusions.
I've had my fair share of unsavory events resulting in triggers.. but who hasn't?
No, for me, it's fear.. fear that curls up inside you and like a corrosive acid spreading through each part of my body numbing me into a sense of being paralyzed in sharp pain and hatred for motivation.
About 4 years ago I was diagnosed with severe anxiety linked arms with a dissociation disorder. Anything else I just refer to as a symptom of the Anxiety.
I hate people, I hate being left alone in my head. I have agoraphobia, so for me... the supermarket may as well be the equivalent of walking through a fire pit, unenjoyable to say the least.
I forget where I am, and I'm completely unable to control certain parts of my varied personalities.
I live a life of nonexistence, In my own head anyway. I've been on more SSRIs than I can literally remember the names of, mood stabilizers. Eventually (after 2 and a half years) they realized that none of this works. I now take Sodium Valproate Sandoz, and Valium. In two weeks my doctor has admitted me into a psychiatric hospital in hope that they'll be more effective than my prescribed drugs and self medicating.
I'm sick of analyzing people and situations into dream like delusions.
I've had my fair share of unsavory events resulting in triggers.. but who hasn't?
lately my fear is trying to get help with my anxiety, i really don't want to take medication....afraid of side effects, etc.
but i thought i might be able to find a good therapist
i have a physical exam tomorrow so was going to try and see about getting a referral or something
i over analyze things and my life feels delusional so i can relate to what you said even if that is not what you meant...LOL
To that end, I am exploring my vitamin, mineral and amino acids as well as hormone levels. Typically not tests done in a doctor's office. There is a clinic that provides this treatment but you can generally find a chiropractor or alternative wellness clinic willing to do these tests. Sometimes insurance will cover this but if not, you can shop around. I'm getting an entire panel done for $60 (My doctor's office wanted to charge $300 to test just my vitamin D).
While meds can be super expensive and can have staggering side effects at times, vitamins typically do not have side effects when taken in the proper amount. In fact, if you need vitamin D, for example, it can not only help with depression, it can also help with rashes, chronic pain, heart disease, cancer prevention...
And because you're addressing the root cause, not just the symptoms, you can treat all of the issues related to low vitamins/minerals/etc.
You may want to explore this. It sometimes seems, especially with anxiety, that something ENORMOUS must be wrong and the only solution is heavy duty meds. But when we're low on certain vitamins and hormones, it can really effect our health.
You might want to get the book "The Anxiety and Phobia Workbook" by Bourne. In it, he looks at a wholistic approach to treatment rather than just meds.
With dissociation, you are not "messed up" - you are reacting to a bad situation the best way you can. There is a book called "Who Parked The Car" that can provide ideas on how to manage and live with dissociation. Here's the link and if it doesn't work you can find it on Amazon: http://www.amazon.com/s/ref=nb_sb_noss?url=search-alias%3Daps&field-keywords=who+parked+the+car