I.feel like.I just want to.take a sedative and knock my ass out, shut down my thoughts

Hi, I am really sorry you are suffering like that. Unfortunately I don't have an answer for you, some months it gets better and some months it gets worse. I can relate to you, I used to be super strong and active, but since anxiety got to me I have been feeling like I am not the same person. Some benzos might help you sleep better but it depends on your levels of anxiety, if you try to fight the effect it makes it worse. I really wish I could help you more, taking to people that understand you usually helps a little, so keep sharing in this group, most of us are going through the same thing, you are not alone.

I know the feeling. I used to never have anxiety or depression, I was happy and outgoing and fun. Then a few years ago I began to have depression which led to panic attacks and prolonged periods of anxiety. I got on some antidepressants and Xanax for attacks and have had to swallow my pride and seek therapy. It was something I never saw myself doing but it had helped tremendously. I go through periods of being fine, working, no attacks, just some random nervousness,...then I'll have a month or two where I have attacks and depression and feel like it will never end. But each person has to actively seek their own form of coping. I have accepted that this is something I will have to deal with for the rest of my life. I've done yoga and it helps, walking at the park and getting fresh air, making sure I open up and talk to people who understand and help so I have a support system, medications, aromatherapy...I discover new ways to help myself all the time. That's the best we can do, is try to understand our problems, accept them, and then deal with them.

The most important thing to remember is you are not alone.

Hi CeeCee.
How are u feeling today?From what i understand in your posts it seems like u dont have a problem medically.I'd therefore like to suggest an exercise where u get a notebook and record all ur thoughts and feelings for at least one month.this can help u to recognise patterns that may trigger such bouts of anxiety.Secondly,do u spend much time alone?im asking because when i sit alone for long periods,i begin to introspect so much that i become anxious.I hope ths helps CeeCee.Have a good day

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I’m pretty active I train in two martial arts (Brazilian jiu jitsu and May Thai) I go trail running, hiking, lift weights etc. I love fitness it is definitely my outlet. I’m also a recovering bulimic, but as of late I have relapsed in that department I feel like anxiety triggers my bulimia. Poor coping mechanism developed.

I still have nights where I feel impending doom.
It sounds silly, but I just take deep breathes and tell myself “even if I died right now, how would I feel about it, am I satisfied with my life thus far?” And the answers is, I’m proud of my life and all I have accomplished and built with my lovely kids and husband. So yes, I am satisfied. It helps calm me down, almost that accepting my own death makes the anxiety go away. Could I have anxiety related to dying and that’s what triggers episodes? Possibly, i am a nurse so I work with all kinds of patients.

Grounding is good and helps me too. So I’d say I have improvements with anxiety, it is still there just not as bad as it was to where I wanted to call 911.

I was wondering if cbd oil would help at bedtime? I know most people with anxiety have a harder time at night and upon waking.
Has anyone tried cbd and if so did it help?

I am so sorry that you are going through such a hard time. It seems to be a story of someone I know. He shared the same symptoms. But for him everything changed, the moment Yoda entered his life. Yoda is his emotional support dog. The delights of having a four-legged creatures around everyday impacted his mental health positively. You can try it for yourself to see the results.

If you would consider medication, there is genetic testing available to find out which medicine is the best for you. I hope you can find some coping methods to combat your current anxiety.