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Little League season is off into its practice stages. Our team has had 3 practices here at the farm this Spring Break weekend. I can't seem to quit watching the driveway for the maskite enforcers to show up to enforce their mandates. As I try to relax and enjoy the proceedings, my paranoia keeps creeping up to insist, "**They** are out to get us. No fun allowed in Coronaville."
This morning's read from, "Courage to Change" seems pertinent to the theme. I'm not quite sure how, but ? ? ? Let the questioning begin.
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Pre-therapy, forgiveness meant power to me. I could judge the offender --the person who wasn't doing what I wanted-- and then exercise my power by showing that I could rise above the offense and magnanimously bestow forgiveness. But I would never forget what had been done.
Today I know that forgiveness has nothing to do with power. It does not give me control. Forgiveness is simply a reminder that I am on equal footing with every other child of God. We all do good and noble things at times; on other occasions we may offend. I have no right to judge, punish, or absolve anyone. When I behave self-righteously, I'm the one who suffers --I separate myself from my fellow human beings, focus on others, and keep busy with hateful and negative thoughts. By taking this attitude I tell myself I am a victim, so I remain a victim. The most forgiving thing I can do is to remember that y job is not to judge others, but to think and behave in a way that lets me feel good.
Today's Reminder
I don't know the motives or circumstances that cause another's behavior. I do know that when I hold onto resentment and blame, I occupy my spirit with bitterness. Today I will find a more nurturing way to fill myself up.
You can't hold a man down without staying down with him. ~Booker T. Washington
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The foster kids have missed the 3 practices --the first social events they have been allowed since the CPS custody shifted to here in August 2019, to visit with their maternal relatives in the Urban Covid center 3 hours to the south of here. With The Virus doing what viruses do and mutating around the globe, I fully expect a renewed and meaner round of mask mandates to shut us down early into the season. Dunno if forgiveness would be a useful tool here, or knot. Sorting. . . Testing. . .
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I haven't written in my diary on my computer since May because I thought that my computer was dying. I got away from writing but my computer is hanging in there. I think that I will start writing in it again. It's so therapeutic.
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Years ago, I won a mirrored armoire from my job. It's in my bedroom but I rarely stand in front of it. Yesterday, I had to have a dexascan done so I had to change into a gown. There was a full length mirror in the changing room. I'm aware that I gained 5 to 7 pounds over the last year from cheating on Keto but I didn't know what it looked like. It was a reality check.
Here's to the 'forgiving is for our own well-being' which has brought me peace of mind and heart and allowed me to leave the hurt behind.
May today be comfortable for you.
Honestly, I appreciate the quotes and I do hope for your kids to get through these crazy times; I hope for all our kids the same.
Spiritual hugs! :)
Sorting. . . Processing. . .
Third practice is this afternoon. Prayers in progress. . .