everything in the world nowadays seems to be so overcharged with emotions. even in action packed movies you have to have drama, otherwise it doesn't work. emotions can be compared to spices, you have to add them to food in the right proportion and in the right combination. also it has to be tuned to the personal preference of an individual in particular. I would argue, however, it must not opaque the flavor of the main ingredient. it takes time to be a good cook. be patient with others and with yourself. colleges have counselors and psychologists and psychiatrists to help students. they tend to be sensitive to peoples problems and are a point of reference by which to orient yourself. let us know how everything is coming along. Good luck.

Kirdy,
I can relate, I mean I came here at a young age and without the luxury of horses but I can relate to the difficulty of relating to anyone. I felt like everyone had inner dialogue and inside jokes that I never understood. That feeling goes away after a while I guarantee it. Like you said, it kinda sounds like you are depending on your boyfriend. I don't see it that way, I see him more as an aid to your anchor, to your safe place. I suggest you find a safe place within yourself, and if things did not meet your expectations see it as fascinating instead of frustrating. Imagine you are discovering a new part of you a new place. You are not alone, you have yourself. The solution isn't there to find. You have it already, it will just take some time and getting used to it. Be patient with yourself and know that you are strong and adaptable. Join a club or an extracurricular activity, do things you wouldn't usually do. Enjoy this opportunity, it is up to you, and that is the scary part. Be confident in you and your ability. Where overseas did you come from?

That's an interesting way of putting it. I guess he has become what he keeps me sane. I'm just worried I put too much pressure on him to deal with problems he really doesn't understand or know how to try to understand.

I came from Singapore

Here are several things I am going to share with you as an older person who has traveled and lived in different places. Consider this an adventure, a way to find new ideas, new memories, and being different is new to you as well. When we take something we value to a new place, it often changes how we feel, because it no longer fits like it did before. That's normal, because we changed (often forget this tiny detail). When you moved, made the decision to travel, you changed. Give yourself credit for recognizing that you notice the difference. Take time to write out your feelings, then put them in a category to help you see the pattern of thought that makes the best of the information to help you move forward. I had to go places that were brand new to me to find the similar feeling I wanted, that I no longer got from places that were already in my new place. Met a lot of people in different ways who gave me new ideas and this helped me figure out how I had changed and I found new activities to add to my knowledge, skill, and ability level. The more you reach out in new ways, the more you continue to grow. Best wishes! Enjoy the adventure!