Baby steps sister. You've got a lot on your plate. Make sure to take time for yourself even if it's just a nice hot shower or a little nap. Remember to go outside and look up at the sky. Baby steps...

You aren't losing the battle and you are strong!! Look at all your dealing with! In therapy I say "I can't stand it" all the time when I'm talking about panic or anxiety and he always says "As long as you are breathing, you can stand it" and that's what I tell myself!! You can get through this! Be strong!!

Yes you are strong! But that doesn't mean that you can't show weakness! When my baby girl was in the NICU for a month, I fell to pieces and could barely go visit her because i was so scared she would die. I felt incredibly weak, and I didn't have the energy or the desire to pretend otherwise. Every person in that hospital will always remember me as "the woman who never stopped crying." And I have 4 other kids to take care of, but you know what, I did the best I could.

Like lovnmthrhd said, I knew as long as I was breathing that I would be okay no matter what happened, but that didn't mean I was going to try to make myself be strong at a time in my life when I was perfectly entitled to be weak. We aren't all Jackie Kennedy, you know?

Once things settle down, then you can worry about digging deep and building your strength back up. But I am a firm believer in letting negative emotions out and feeling the complete pain in every traumatic situation, because to me, that is the only way to be able to let it go at some point and move on.

Panic attacks are different....they aren't real. They are our imagination. I do not believe in EVER showing weakness during a panic attack. But right now, this is a perfect example of a time in your life when you have every right to let go of your strength for a while and let other people take care of you when they can.

I hope your husband gets to come home soon!

you are NOT weak honey. who wouldnt have anxiety, even if you normally dont in a situation like this. let yourself feel the feelings, without focusing on the anxiety. it is sooo normal to feel scared of the unknown, but when your thought keeps drifting "making up stories," call you anxiety out. give it a thank you for sharing, and then replace the negative with a positive, such as my husband is sick, but i will continue to be the best mother i am to my children. hang in there :)

I agree with everyone else, you are not weak, your not a bad person...Hang on to everyone you can for support, and take care of yourself! I hope everything turns out okay for your hubby!

There is nothing wrong with tears. being strong doesn't mean no crying. and if your kids see your tears that's ok. they can give you hugs and they may ask why you are crying and you can give them an answer that won't scare them. I am sure they are thinking things too. Perhaps it is important you all talk about it. Are they asking questions and are they tearful or worried?

You are far stronger than you can imagine but you do have a load and you need support and people with you. You have a ton on your plate and I just noticed you have fibromyalgia too. I have fibro too and it is horrible and I understand how difficult it is. and stress and worry isn't good for us not one bit.

Are you taking anything for the anxiety?
Have you Seen a doctor to help you through this trying time. doctor can give you something to help handle the stress.
I don't think I could handle what you are going through without taking medication. It is a heavy load.

You are not wrong. not wrong at all. I am feeling a little guilty because the other day I mentioned about keeping strong for your kids but the thing is you are strong. I cannot imagine the stress you are going through and dealing with physical problems too with the fibromyalgia.
You have my support and I want to encourage you that you are doing an amazing job.
Please see a doctor if you can and tell them about this stress you are under. i think under these kinds of circumstances is when medications can be a lifesaver.

I am thinking of you and your family.