Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
the psychosis which was triggered on december 6th seems to have passed. seems. . . at least, that's my prayer and i'm sticking to it. again i indulge a wish for clear markers to say, "i'm over ^it^," but even with physical illness, recovery is a mysterious process. i feel like healing has happened, but confidence and trust remain a bit shakey.
the chain of events over the 3 month psychosis have brought about quite a few changes. none so cataclysmic as the changes which brought my little ship of fools together in 2019, but substantial, nonetheless. i don't believe the details are important to this discussion, so i will skip them for now. they are available in previous posts and journal entries, if you care to do the research.
for this discussion, i am reaching for ways to relax and let the changes happen in their own time, space and direction. my control freakitis is growling at the thought of giving up that much control. where are the clear definitions of those changes? what are the plans of action? start and end dates? have all of the above passed comittee approval yet? should i just let the mystery be?
breathing. . .
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I haven't written in my diary on my computer since May because I thought that my computer was dying. I got away from writing but my computer is hanging in there. I think that I will start writing in it again. It's so therapeutic.
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Years ago, I won a mirrored armoire from my job. It's in my bedroom but I rarely stand in front of it. Yesterday, I had to have a dexascan done so I had to change into a gown. There was a full length mirror in the changing room. I'm aware that I gained 5 to 7 pounds over the last year from cheating on Keto but I didn't know what it looked like. It was a reality check.
I hope Spring is better to you and things smooth out in your household. I send you big hugs.
I guess in a religious sense you could “ Give it to God” This really helps me in 2 ways. One is I let go of control and trust that a higher power will take over for me in some sense if I’m not well enough to go it alone and 2 a reminder that I’m never alone .
Another take is something I read somewhere sometime. That it’s not about controlling the outcome but knowing we can handle what comes our way. This one I struggle with but maybe it’s helpful I think we are stronger in general than we give ourselves credit .
good luck with your presentation. i've never had to give a formal presentation and the very thought shivers me timbers, but letting go of the control was essential to surviving in the business world. it seems nobody wants to pay me for doing everything my own way.
thank you, light.
i solidly agree with both of the tools you suggested and have been rewarded with some very solid benefits for using both. thank you for the reminder. perfect timing.