I have anxiety and its getting the best of me right now. I dont know what to do anymore. I dont know what to do anymore. I am trying to get it under control and not let it get to me but its harder than I thought. I am on meds but they are not helping me any right now. I am on the edge of losing the man that I love and that makes me so happy. When my anxiety gets high, it comes out as anger and a temper. i dont know what to do anymore. I am feeling so lost and I dont know where to do anymore. I feel like doing things to myself at times and i feel like i am not being a good mom to my three kids bc of how i a feeling right now. I just feel so lost and confused all the time. I mean i have good days and the bad days are really bad. I just want to know what is going on with me and want to fix what is wrong with me. It gets really bad when i am out in public and around alot of people that I dont know. I even hate going to walmart bc i get so nervous and my anxiety gets so bad while i am there. I smoke, and when i go to walmart i have to smoke two cigarettes back to back just to go to walmart and after 5 minutes there i am so ready to leave. I just at the point that I dont see the end in site and i dont think that i will even get better. I want to go get a job and work, but the thought of being around alot of people all the time, makes me so nervous and scared. Just the thought of working and going to things with my kids with alot of people makes me so nervous and i dont know what to do. I half the time only go to stores that i know there wont be alot of people there and that there are people that i know that are there working. It really scares me and makes me so nervous that i get sick and cant even eat at times. I just feel like i am letting my kids, my family and everyone that loves me and cares about me down.