I have had severe anxiety since I was a child! It sucks! I was terrified to raise my hand in class, try out for sports and even walk into a room! My heart would race and I knew I was not normal but did not know why. It took me 50 years before I got professional help. I tried celexa which did help I took 20mg and saw a social worker once a week. I am now off celexa & yes I still think negative thoughts & I am afraid to do certain things but what has helped me is that I do not beat myself up about having anxiety. Yes I have a severe case but I have other things that define me. I have found that anxious people are more compassionate as they suffer in so many ways. If I see a car, I see an accident, if I get a missed phone call that means someone may have died....I can go on and on but I know you understand.....My daughter gave me a little box and on it it says "pray more & worry less" and prayer has helped me. I say 3 Hail Marys every morning and night.....I hope you know that there are people who understand.....

Look into the MTHFR gene mutation. Balancing your nutrients goes a long way. Be sure to drink electolytes and take magnesium when you use methylated Folate and B-12

honey have you ever been tested for anything on the autism spectrum? My daughter's fiance has aspergers and he can have a hard time talking in person. He had to learn strategies. I realise more and more people are autistic as life goes by... possibly including myself.

I say this because you have a lot of love but have a hard time expressing it. There's something in the way. obviously may not be what I suggest above, but there is something in the way.

So yesterday was slightly better back now to feeling like Crap I think I know issue may be because of my wife she was diagnosed with fibromyalgia a year ago one minute she is happy as I am when she is then her attitude changes it's like I am with 2 different people nice to me one minute next mean verbally kicking me in the crotch she is breaking my heart and breaking me down it's like she wants me happy just to bring me down

She is on constant asking me if I'm hiding something or asking me if I've cheated

I know with anxiety , sometimes depression is right around the corner. I am not a therapist but you seem very down. The first step is to get a physical. Sometimes it is medical: low thyroid, blood sugar, Fibro., anemia. etc. can have anxiety symptoms: like dizziness, nauseous, weak, tired, difficulty concentrating, etc. If it is your physical health, then you deal with it. If it is your mental health, then you also deal with it. Most cities have mental health facilities that have therapist work on a sliding scale-whatever you can afford. You can find a therapist on line also.

So it's all me I mean I've been so unreasonable and unrealistic trying to live a movie like life when really I need to understand life is real not some fantasy

People get mad people hurt nothing is gonna be perfect I need to except the to grow as a human being

This. I feel like so many have this problem. It's so much easier to open up to someone when they aren't right in front of thier face.