My anxiety has been minor for the past few weeks, mostly just anxiety attacks that i've been able to cope with after a while but last night it just overwhelmed me, everything hit me all at once and i had a massive panic attack, all the symptoms.. stomach ache, shaking, dread, fear, dry mouth, it was horrible and it took me forever to feel normal again.. My brother was drinking last night for his 22nd birthday (Yay!) and he also overate.. later on he threw up.. I am severely afraid of people throwing up/getting sick/complaining of any stomach pain because of past experiences and because I have this irrational fear that whatever is making them throw up.. will get to me eventually.. I know this is not logical because 1. I didn't drink last night and 2. I did not overeat and still 3. Everyone reacts differently to different things, So who even knows if i would get as sick as he is... He threw up once last night and he was okay for the rest of the night.. but I just woke up and he was upstairs spitting mucus out and clearing his throat (he has a mucus problem, sorry, i know it's gross :P) i was scared because i mistook that noise for the noise of someone vomiting.. then he came down and I am very paranoid that he threw up, he didn't say if he did or not because he knows that i am very anxious about it.. but i'm so paranoid and i'm wondering why he threw up again if he's fine...

*Sigh* I had a hard night, my anxiety hasn't been this bad in a while but I guess it's because I hold it all inside, i don't talk to people and then i just get so built up that i break down.. and now i'm already sensitive, so everything is putting me on edge... I'm scared that i'll have panic like this again, get stuck in a loop.

Any advice, help or anything to get me through this? I always forget how to cope.