I just feel like I can't do anything right. My teachers have always complained about how slow I am at learning things compared to my other classmates. I always need to get tutoring and extra help when learning new things and doing my homework. I especially struggle with math and science. This past month has been horrible because I'm taking a physics class and a math class. These classes require me to work with a group of people but while other people in my group are solving the problems fast and understanding everything, I'm still trying to figure out how to do the problems. I ask them for help but they ignore me and make up excuses to not help me, and when they do help me, they explain everything super fast and I simply don't get it. I try to ask my teachers but they also struggle. I also struggle with the subjects that should be the easiest, like art. Just a few days ago we had to cut some paper and I simply couldn't do it. My teacher told me that it is ridiculous how I seem to have never learned to use scissors properly. I ended up getting my project done with her help, while the rest of my peers did the project on their own. It is embarassing. The only subject I'm really good at is English. I like to read, write, analyze stuff, etc. I'm very good at writing essays and I've even been told that I seem to have the gift of literature. This, however, doesn't seem to impress people. I've noticed that the people that are the most sucessful are the ones that are good at math and science. I don't even have a good career because of this same reason, because I seem to suck at everything I do. I tried to become a writer, I was told my stories were boring. I tried to become an actress, I got rejected for not being able to socialize the way I should. I tried to become a nurse, they told me I couldn't because of how low my math and science results are. Now I'm studying to become an elementary school teacher, the lowest paid career. I like it but I do wish I was good enough to study another career that I like. I've also been told that I'm so "unattractive" that the only thing I'm able to do is either become a librarian or a teacher. I was so worried about struggling in everything I do that I even took some professional IQ tests and they all came back as me having an "Above average" IQ. Yet, I can't figure out why I struggle so much with the things I do.
I'm getting a very small box to type in this morning, yeah I can make it bigger but even so, that problem is back.Also, my journals won't post! Just the pinwheel of death. At least I have learned to copy my journals before I post them becuase this has happened before.Is this just me?